but i can only fill the glass so much

[ebster]

good. just perfect. smiles all around. great to know you could be of service to someone in their time of dire need eh? so satisfactory when you've finally met your purpose, your quota with someone, then you're done. they've found someone else prettier and smarter and more fun than you, you were just good for the time in between, to tide them over until they could get what they really wanted. god it just makes my day, how 'bout you? cuz i know when someone acts like i mean the world to them one second and casts me aside the next, i feel just dandy. the best part is watching them explain why this happened...with absolutely no regard that you too are a human being with feelings. they just go right on talking about how they just love their new situation, and wonder why the hell they got involved with you. as fall out boy so nicely states, i am their best kept secret and their biggest mistake.

i want to be more than the girl in between. i don't want to be fall back, i don't want to be second best, i don't want to tide them over while they wait for their dream girl. i want to be more than enough to make someone happy...not just enough to please them for the moment, and to get them through their lonliness and need of attention...

we can't all get what we want.

i must be doing something very wrong...or maybe nothing right...