Hard Day
Today was a good day...until just before lunch. I have seldom felt so stupid in my life or so... heavy hearted. Ok so at school we got this thing called Future Teachers that you can be in. I'm in it and amazing the teacher i got stuck with i've known all my life. Literally ALL my life. She was my next door neighbor for the sixteen years before i moved.
I believe God put me there with her because of some of the stuff she was telling me today. I just wanted to cry and hug her because i felt so bad and, as usual, helpless. She hasn't been having a very good school year so far and she just sounds overwhelmed. Her kids (she teaches first grade) need more attention than she feels she can afford each of them and they're falling behind in the ciriculum already.
She told me about one night over the weekend when she was writing up her lesson plan for the next week to hand it in and she just was so tired and frustrated she was crying. Her husband came in and told her basically to suck it up and not to take it out on them because she's having trouble. That's what really made me want to cry. It sounds like she's getting no support at home.
She said her daughter, Sarah, is helping her but Sarah reall isn't someone she can pour her heart out to. My mom used to always be just up the hill so she could talk to her and now i wonder if she's found somoene she can confide in like that. Sounds like she needs someone like that.
Pray for her if you think of her. And pray for me too. I really, really feel like God wants me to do something to help her but...i just don't know what i can do. With a normal teacher i'd just listen and maybe offer to do some extra work out of class but i want to do more for her. I KNOW her. But i'm also below her at school. I'm trying to do this and stay in my bounds as a student.
I want to start leaving her verses to encourage her on her desk and just funny little things that will hopefully help to brighten her day. perhaps i'll see if she'll let me do something for her over the weekends so she's not so burdened. I don't know. All i know is that i need to do something to help her.
oh yeah the afore mentioned feeling stupid thing. i was half and hour late to class because i got distracted and the clock in her room doesn't work. My friend was supposed to come get me but when she was there i wasn't. Wasn't too bad. It was a study hall today but still. I wish i could have melted into the floor. how big of an idiot do you have to be to manage a half an hour late to class?
I believe God put me there with her because of some of the stuff she was telling me today. I just wanted to cry and hug her because i felt so bad and, as usual, helpless. She hasn't been having a very good school year so far and she just sounds overwhelmed. Her kids (she teaches first grade) need more attention than she feels she can afford each of them and they're falling behind in the ciriculum already.
She told me about one night over the weekend when she was writing up her lesson plan for the next week to hand it in and she just was so tired and frustrated she was crying. Her husband came in and told her basically to suck it up and not to take it out on them because she's having trouble. That's what really made me want to cry. It sounds like she's getting no support at home.
She said her daughter, Sarah, is helping her but Sarah reall isn't someone she can pour her heart out to. My mom used to always be just up the hill so she could talk to her and now i wonder if she's found somoene she can confide in like that. Sounds like she needs someone like that.
Pray for her if you think of her. And pray for me too. I really, really feel like God wants me to do something to help her but...i just don't know what i can do. With a normal teacher i'd just listen and maybe offer to do some extra work out of class but i want to do more for her. I KNOW her. But i'm also below her at school. I'm trying to do this and stay in my bounds as a student.
I want to start leaving her verses to encourage her on her desk and just funny little things that will hopefully help to brighten her day. perhaps i'll see if she'll let me do something for her over the weekends so she's not so burdened. I don't know. All i know is that i need to do something to help her.
oh yeah the afore mentioned feeling stupid thing. i was half and hour late to class because i got distracted and the clock in her room doesn't work. My friend was supposed to come get me but when she was there i wasn't. Wasn't too bad. It was a study hall today but still. I wish i could have melted into the floor. how big of an idiot do you have to be to manage a half an hour late to class?