Reflection
As the year 2006 draws to a close, I can't help but wonder and ask myself if I'll have anything to remeber, anything to show for this year. Did I affect my world, make an impression? If i was to die at the @ 11:59 on Dec 31, 2006, what could be said about my last year on this earth? Have I lived my live in accordance to Scripture, walked in the way that my Lord would have me? Most importantly, have I served my Lord with all of me, putting Him above all things?
So many questions.
My break has been quite uneventful. It's weird because I'm still in OK mode, waiting for people to call me to see if they wanna do stuff. then I remember, this is home 1) nobody waits for anything here,I have to initate activites and projects and such and 2) I have been out of state for 3 years. No one remebers me, or if they do, they probably don't care. It could be my fault, after all I was the one who stopped calling home to remind people I'm alive, but why should I go out of my way if I am the only one maintaining the relationship? I am not one to hold someone to me, even if it hurts to let them go.
This is a freaking long entry, but I'm bored.
My mom and I got into a "heated discussion." I hate them yet I love them. I hate them because she says all sorts of mean, horrible things about me and I don't know if she means them or not, but I love them because I learn so much about her. It is amazing whatyou can learn about someone when they lose their temper. It is one of the few times you can glimpse into their soul, into their essence, and find out what really makes them tick. It's like watching the circuitry connections after pushing a button.
Well, my leg has fallen asleep. I guess i'll go.
More later
J
So many questions.
My break has been quite uneventful. It's weird because I'm still in OK mode, waiting for people to call me to see if they wanna do stuff. then I remember, this is home 1) nobody waits for anything here,I have to initate activites and projects and such and 2) I have been out of state for 3 years. No one remebers me, or if they do, they probably don't care. It could be my fault, after all I was the one who stopped calling home to remind people I'm alive, but why should I go out of my way if I am the only one maintaining the relationship? I am not one to hold someone to me, even if it hurts to let them go.
This is a freaking long entry, but I'm bored.
My mom and I got into a "heated discussion." I hate them yet I love them. I hate them because she says all sorts of mean, horrible things about me and I don't know if she means them or not, but I love them because I learn so much about her. It is amazing whatyou can learn about someone when they lose their temper. It is one of the few times you can glimpse into their soul, into their essence, and find out what really makes them tick. It's like watching the circuitry connections after pushing a button.
Well, my leg has fallen asleep. I guess i'll go.
More later
J