Bet ya didn't know
So this past couple weeks I've been discovering alot about myself, what drives me and such. It's been interesting and a bit painful. For instance did you know i do half of tyhe things i do just cause people say i won't. I hate being predictable. Ya didn't know that did you? I also hate not looking good. I hate being not put together ( well, you prolly already knew that). I think that develpoed sophomore year with the flag accident. I also have a problem responding to compliments (not that they are not appreicated). Most of the compliments i've heard in my life came with conditions ("you're pretty....for a dark girl" or "you look good, but you'd look better with some lipstick, powder,makeup of some kind, or "you think you're beautiful, but you're not, you have a pretty face and that's it"). Spoken words hold a lot of power over me. Beat and bruise me and I would never make a sound. A few well chosen words and you could completely anihalite me. So with this discovery, I have found what I need to work on. I need to discover for myself, that I am beautiful because I am me, and because I am created by Almighty God. I'm not all the way there, i still have my momoents, but by the grace of God, i will make it.