Encountering my Arch-nemisis After 5 Years.
Ugh...I've been asleep all day and I am still so tired...the only reason I am not asleep now is the fact that whenever I go to sleep I keep waking myself up with these horrible muscle spasms...I nearly fell out of bed because of them twice and almost punched myself in the head but thankfully I woke up before I could do that.
Its funny how the world works. I got a message from Krissu-kun today asking if I knew this girl who I had gone to school with in grade 7 (actually he specifically stated that she was my best friend...Kami knows how he got that impression because if she told him that then the bitch is even dumber than I had imagined). Anyway it turns out that she did his hair the other day...I told him that he should never ever go near her again...I don't think it was overreacting either. You see she and I were best friends in grade 7, only because she told me that if I wanted to be her friend then I couldn't be friends with anyone else...so of course she would be my best friend if she was the only one! We all know how hard it is for me to make friends now and I was even shyer back then so of course I accepted these terms...thankfully I came to my senses after she stole stuff from me and treated me like shit. Anyway when we hit junior high school she made my life a living hell. You know those human interest stories you see on TV about these kids being bullied at school? Yeah my experiences with this girl would go up within some of the worst in one of those. But I took it all in my stride, never told any of my teachers about it, only told my mum about some of it...I never really dwelled on it until tonight and now I wished that I hadn't because it brought back all those memories as painful as when they were happening. If I saw that bitch being gang raped in the street and I had a gun and it was legal to kill people for no reason then I would wait until they were all finished with her, I'd pistol whip the bitch until she couldn't stand and then I would shoot her somewhere which was not lethal and watch as she slowly and painfully bled to death...that is how much hatred I feel for her...I made myself a promise when I was in year 10, that I would never ever forgive her, not even if she became the next mother bloody Teresa would I forgive her! I mean the number of times she would threaten to beat me up or get a bunch of her feral friends to beat me up is enormous. She would yell horrible things at me across the school grounds/ car park/ shopping center, names, comments, you name it. She somehow managed to turn almost everyone against me, she would spread lies about me, she would plot to ruin my life...I know this for a fact...I heard the rumors, I hacked her frigging email account and read some of the damn plans she had made with one of her friends! One incident that stands out in my mind was the time when this guy in my class was drawing this monster-like female creature on the board whilst my class was waiting for our teacher to arrive, the girl went up to the board and made some speech bubbles, proceeding to fill them in with lines such as 'My name is Sian and I am an ugly stuck up whore...etc etc"...although I would like to note that the teacher showed up just as she finished, busted her doing it and she got suspended for bullying. She would forge my writing and write notes to people pretending to be me, asking out feral guys or trying to turn my friends against me. She would apologize for everything and we would become friends again only for her to lull me into a false sense of security so I would tell her things and then the next thing I knew she was using it all against me. I mean this is just in the stuff I can remember, I have blocked out so much of this shit just because I couldn't deal with it! She was one of the main reasons why I left my old high school. So of course I am going to worry that she will try and seduce my boyfriend or ruin my relationship with him or something...if you had to put up with this kind of thing day in and day out for 3 years wouldn't you worry too? I'm not worried about Krissu-kun, Kami knows he loves me too much to ever leave me but it is that disease ridden mole that I don't trust...she somehow managed to turn almost an entire school against me in the course of a few days and kept it that way for so long so why wouldn't she somehow do it again?
I apologize for the rant but I had to get it out of my system.
Its funny how the world works. I got a message from Krissu-kun today asking if I knew this girl who I had gone to school with in grade 7 (actually he specifically stated that she was my best friend...Kami knows how he got that impression because if she told him that then the bitch is even dumber than I had imagined). Anyway it turns out that she did his hair the other day...I told him that he should never ever go near her again...I don't think it was overreacting either. You see she and I were best friends in grade 7, only because she told me that if I wanted to be her friend then I couldn't be friends with anyone else...so of course she would be my best friend if she was the only one! We all know how hard it is for me to make friends now and I was even shyer back then so of course I accepted these terms...thankfully I came to my senses after she stole stuff from me and treated me like shit. Anyway when we hit junior high school she made my life a living hell. You know those human interest stories you see on TV about these kids being bullied at school? Yeah my experiences with this girl would go up within some of the worst in one of those. But I took it all in my stride, never told any of my teachers about it, only told my mum about some of it...I never really dwelled on it until tonight and now I wished that I hadn't because it brought back all those memories as painful as when they were happening. If I saw that bitch being gang raped in the street and I had a gun and it was legal to kill people for no reason then I would wait until they were all finished with her, I'd pistol whip the bitch until she couldn't stand and then I would shoot her somewhere which was not lethal and watch as she slowly and painfully bled to death...that is how much hatred I feel for her...I made myself a promise when I was in year 10, that I would never ever forgive her, not even if she became the next mother bloody Teresa would I forgive her! I mean the number of times she would threaten to beat me up or get a bunch of her feral friends to beat me up is enormous. She would yell horrible things at me across the school grounds/ car park/ shopping center, names, comments, you name it. She somehow managed to turn almost everyone against me, she would spread lies about me, she would plot to ruin my life...I know this for a fact...I heard the rumors, I hacked her frigging email account and read some of the damn plans she had made with one of her friends! One incident that stands out in my mind was the time when this guy in my class was drawing this monster-like female creature on the board whilst my class was waiting for our teacher to arrive, the girl went up to the board and made some speech bubbles, proceeding to fill them in with lines such as 'My name is Sian and I am an ugly stuck up whore...etc etc"...although I would like to note that the teacher showed up just as she finished, busted her doing it and she got suspended for bullying. She would forge my writing and write notes to people pretending to be me, asking out feral guys or trying to turn my friends against me. She would apologize for everything and we would become friends again only for her to lull me into a false sense of security so I would tell her things and then the next thing I knew she was using it all against me. I mean this is just in the stuff I can remember, I have blocked out so much of this shit just because I couldn't deal with it! She was one of the main reasons why I left my old high school. So of course I am going to worry that she will try and seduce my boyfriend or ruin my relationship with him or something...if you had to put up with this kind of thing day in and day out for 3 years wouldn't you worry too? I'm not worried about Krissu-kun, Kami knows he loves me too much to ever leave me but it is that disease ridden mole that I don't trust...she somehow managed to turn almost an entire school against me in the course of a few days and kept it that way for so long so why wouldn't she somehow do it again?
I apologize for the rant but I had to get it out of my system.