look laur...i made you a promise...and so did you...we are never going to stop being who we are...and who i am and always will be is your friend...i know i may ignore you...but lately its been becuase ive been upset...my emotions have really taken a toll on me lately and it shows...and i know it hurts you and im sorry...i care about you so much...i made a promise...and i dont mean to break it...i hope you dont either...dont give up...im still here... Your Best Friend, Douglas
I don't wanna break that promise but I just feel so distant from eveyone its like most of the time I'm not even really there....I'm just watching it happen from a distance...then all this other stuff is happening that I don't even want to think about but I'm pretty sure you already know what I'm talking about and..then there is stuff only I know about that's freaking me out completely..and yeah I'm just broken...I'm just broken that's the only way to describe it..
well i cant tell you what to do cuz i dont know what you should do...all i can think of is what we should have done all along from the beginning...before us...befire anything...pray...i think that is the only solution...god can do what i or anyone else cant...
Doug you know how I'm the one always saying that....saying that when people are so lost and hurt that that's what they need well...even I can't turn to him right now...with drink in one hand a tears running down my face I can't turn to him
You have more people that care about you than you know about. And you can turn to God no matter where your at in your life. Pain is hard to handle. Just keep in mind that once its all over you'll be a stronger and better person because of it. :) If its ok I'll add you to my friends list.
Re: cheer up.ebonylaurelsOctober 3 2004, 20:35:23 UTC
the thing is I can only remeber one time when there wasn't pain, or atleast there was alot less, physical and emtional, and I'll never have that agian, and then i was the farthest from god I have ever been before, so its hard for me to believe that...the pain is constant the amount just varies now and then, the past couple mounths its just been quite more that usual, you can add me I forgot shann told me you had made one...
all I can say is you have to get through this the best way you know how.Gods with you. share your pain with him. I hope this dosen't offend you but i'll be praying for you.:)
Re: cheer up.ebonylaurelsOctober 4 2004, 20:09:30 UTC
I was going to say a bunch of personal stuff right here...then I was like I don't want/need everybody to knoe that..so I'ma not say that..then I was like I'll e-mail it to him..wait I don't have his e-mail and shann isn't online well..poop..so I'm leaving you this message..instead telling you this
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Your Best Friend,
Douglas
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