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[ebonyjaenelle72]

Jaenelle is deeply distressed. She's locked herself in her study again, pacing back and forth, going over and over the events of last night and trying to decide what in Hell's name she should do. And she really has no idea. She wishes, fervently, that Saetan were here. He'd know what to do.

It grates on her that she's a healer, and she hurt someone

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[myrddin_wyllt]

Merlin is never really, really far, Jaenelle. Not when he feels you so miserable, so broken.

The bird is on his branch, pondering if you will allow him to comfort you.

No doubt, you already know he's there.

[ebonyjaenelle72]

She didn't, actually, for a while, which is probably worrying. She's so closed up in her own self, looking at everything she's done wrong, that she didn't even see you there.

But she does, eventually, sense him. And tries to take a deep breath and calm herself. "I'll be fine, don't worry," quaveringly. Hahahaha right.

[myrddin_wyllt]

*Jaenelle....* that's a sad, sad voice. *Do not refuse your friends a chance to be there for you.*

The bird flies in through the window, if she allows, and lands on the table, in front of her.

[ebonyjaenelle72]

Oh, she's not going to stop him.

She looks down. "It's not something anyone can help me with. It's my fault."

[myrddin_wyllt]

*Now now, girl, tell me of it, aye? You cannot stay locked onto yourself so long.*

[ebonyjaenelle72]

"I made a mistake. And now I've hurt someone and I may have lost a friend."

She sounds lost, forlorn, and young.

[myrddin_wyllt]

.... like someone who needs a hug.

The bird flies to the middle of the room, and here's Merlin in his usual, ageless form.

"Oh, Jaenelle...." He puts a hand on her shoulder, strong and reassuring. "What happened?"

[ebonyjaenelle72]

"There's a friend...of Anita's. I was afraid he was going to get himself killed so I...knocked him unconscious. With magic." She cringes, as though expecting a scolding already.

[myrddin_wyllt]

"And you did poorly because?" He sees nothing wrong thus far.

[ebonyjaenelle72]

"He's...they told me he was frightened of it."

[myrddin_wyllt]

He remembers Firekeeper, and makes a sound of understanding.

"It sounds like a long and complicated tale, Faerie Queen. Will you tell me the whole story?"

[ebonyjaenelle72]

She sighs. "What I know." A pause. "A friend of mine - Phedre. He threatened her with painful secrets of her life, violated her privacy. It...I was angry."

[myrddin_wyllt]

He makes a sound, to show that he is listening.

[ebonyjaenelle72]

"I didn't do anything when I went to see him that time, but later we were all gathered and I...was afraid that this man there was going to kill him." She hunches her shoulders. "I panicked, I guess."

[myrddin_wyllt]

"Hmm mmmm. So in effect, you attempted to save someone's life, did you not?"

[ebonyjaenelle72]

"Well - but I went about it all wrong."