Of Youtube, Death, and Life
As an avid user of youtube, and a woman who is putting herself out there by posting vids of myself singing and speaking Japanese on the site, I was sure I would have to deal with
a) Mean people who want to cut me down
b) Stupid people who are judgemental
I am dealing with said thing now.. *sigh* I will follow them for a bit, but its the firggin internet.. sticks and stones.. I will let things go pretty fast. I am mostly pleasant with people.. as I know things said over the internet can be misunderstood easily as well. But.. some girl who is 16 said I was weird for liking a specific Japanese girl group. Well... there are fifty year old men who masturbate to them.. I think THAT is weirder thn me liking their music for the dancability and my Japanese practice ><'
I am finding my singing voice improving with each video I put up, and I am meeting some pretty spiffy people. Youtube is my release for singing and cretivity. I have had a pretty rough time lately, last week losing my second father was no picnic, so what am I gonna do? Sing my heart on youtube :)
In other news, I am STILL looking for a job. Gods our economy sucks.. I know it is not me.. my resume is not lacking in any spiffyness or glitteryness.. people are just not hiring, or hordes of people are all going for the same job at the same time. I have a plan for the long term aspect of things.. but I cannot take much more of living day by day and stressing over if I will have enough money for the basics, or to pay my rent. My body has been rebelling and I am getting sick all the time. I lived that once in college, and it was NOT pretty.
I am not giving up though. I know the Universe will provide, I just have to wait for the right moment to grab onto the right job and the right circumstances,
Friendwise I have been so busy that I have not been able to see a lot of people. My past two weeks were sucked away by the death of my friends father, and now I have to play catch up with all the things I wasn't doing while helping her.. so I feel bad.. It seems like I have cut myself away from friends, but that is not the case. I am just desperately trying to get my life in order.. and when that happens I have to focus on me, since well.. I live with me and me needs to.. oh eat, have a roof over her head and the like ><'
Summer is getting closer with each day.. I am worried about Alaska. I want to go back sooooooooooo bad. But, I think I will have to stay in Washington to work and save money and work on my health. It will be a hard choice, and one I am still putting off since all the stress I have now doesn't need to be compunded with worries around that particular thing. Speaking of health, my right eye is getting taken out on March 27th, and I will get a spiffy glass I that I can tke out randomly to gross people out! Well, that is nt the ONLY reason I am happy, but it makes me feel better, Now I can finally not feel like someone is driving an ice pick in my eye socket and twisting it everyday. Yatta!
Off I go now to try and get my lfie together.. and maybe to watch a little Shugu Cara ^___^v
a) Mean people who want to cut me down
b) Stupid people who are judgemental
I am dealing with said thing now.. *sigh* I will follow them for a bit, but its the firggin internet.. sticks and stones.. I will let things go pretty fast. I am mostly pleasant with people.. as I know things said over the internet can be misunderstood easily as well. But.. some girl who is 16 said I was weird for liking a specific Japanese girl group. Well... there are fifty year old men who masturbate to them.. I think THAT is weirder thn me liking their music for the dancability and my Japanese practice ><'
I am finding my singing voice improving with each video I put up, and I am meeting some pretty spiffy people. Youtube is my release for singing and cretivity. I have had a pretty rough time lately, last week losing my second father was no picnic, so what am I gonna do? Sing my heart on youtube :)
In other news, I am STILL looking for a job. Gods our economy sucks.. I know it is not me.. my resume is not lacking in any spiffyness or glitteryness.. people are just not hiring, or hordes of people are all going for the same job at the same time. I have a plan for the long term aspect of things.. but I cannot take much more of living day by day and stressing over if I will have enough money for the basics, or to pay my rent. My body has been rebelling and I am getting sick all the time. I lived that once in college, and it was NOT pretty.
I am not giving up though. I know the Universe will provide, I just have to wait for the right moment to grab onto the right job and the right circumstances,
Friendwise I have been so busy that I have not been able to see a lot of people. My past two weeks were sucked away by the death of my friends father, and now I have to play catch up with all the things I wasn't doing while helping her.. so I feel bad.. It seems like I have cut myself away from friends, but that is not the case. I am just desperately trying to get my life in order.. and when that happens I have to focus on me, since well.. I live with me and me needs to.. oh eat, have a roof over her head and the like ><'
Summer is getting closer with each day.. I am worried about Alaska. I want to go back sooooooooooo bad. But, I think I will have to stay in Washington to work and save money and work on my health. It will be a hard choice, and one I am still putting off since all the stress I have now doesn't need to be compunded with worries around that particular thing. Speaking of health, my right eye is getting taken out on March 27th, and I will get a spiffy glass I that I can tke out randomly to gross people out! Well, that is nt the ONLY reason I am happy, but it makes me feel better, Now I can finally not feel like someone is driving an ice pick in my eye socket and twisting it everyday. Yatta!
Off I go now to try and get my lfie together.. and maybe to watch a little Shugu Cara ^___^v