Not another brick in The Wall.
If you are someone who didn't conform to being a part of The Wall, By this I don't mean you chose to be different and accomplished great things to show as an evidence. But just as someone who didn't give in to the rules laid by someone else of what you had to do at that time the society expected of you or what was drilled into you as a duty or a natural path. By now you have realised that The Wall doesn't leave you alone. If you haven't yet realised that, then you soon will. Be brave and stand tall to face it, for you have a belief that where your instincts lead you is most important to you.
I have noticed that one starts to give in to the pressures of family, society, friends, peers and follow what is most often seen as a trend as its easy. Easy to not answer the questions of why. Easy to not answer to all the why not. Easy not to ponder on that little sapling that has been lingering on in your mind. Easy to push it aside and let it die, than to nurture it and see it grow into this beautiful flowering plant. If you do believe that you are not a part of the brick mold of That Wall, wait it out. watch what the sapling has to say to you. As it will help you in one thing if nothing else. Discover the real you.
Scared are you that you are not going to have these friends for long? That your girlfriends are going to get busy with their spouses and kids? Your drinking buddies are going to vanish into their daily lifes, struggling to make the weekends happening by a dinner out? Scared of how you will take care of your parents alone? Scared are you of the ones who left the country to never get back? Scared of being left behind? Bored are you of following the lives of all of them on a scrolling page?
Its alright you don't have to be. You will realise who are the precious few who actually mean something to you. That you are the only one you need to be in balance with and not all the troublesome petty relationships that need so much effort. The true relationships with people are the ones that are effortless or the ones that heal no matter how messy it had turned. You will figure out a way to deal with those tricky situations of adult life by yourself. But remember The Wall doesn't leave you alone. It keeps coming back to you, to remind you, as a stranger, as a good friend, as a parent to how its not advisable to not be a brick of That Wall. You will hear it even from the person who you thought believes the most in you.
But believe in your own self. Don't forget your basic foundation and why you didn't want to conform. Look back to see how all this has taught you and made you define "I" a little better than before. Don't forget that you are working in your own path. Not all those who look to be wandering are lost.
I may not even have a definition by someone else's values. I am not defined by my achievement attached to age. But that don't matter at all.
As I am a sum total of my own existence.