Life's unexpected curves
So I went to the bar last night with some of my friends. We were all really crazy there because it was the end of the first day of finals. I ran into a lot of people that I hadnt seen for a long time. The people that I considered my best friends last year, I dont even talk to this year. Anyway, the point is, I got to reconnect with a bunch of old friendships. I took pictures with everyone and it was great. One of my old friends that I ran into was Justin. Him and I were friends all of last year and remained talking throughout the summer. In the summer he suggested that we start dating when I moved back to the college. We ended up not doing so because I had gotten back together with my ex that was cooincidentally name Justin also. After I got back together with my ex is when Justin and I stopped hanging out as much. (I swear this story has a point) So at the bar last night, Justin and I caught up on everything and talked a while. He's a really cool guy. He's very attractive too; there is not a girl here who would not say that. He's in a fraternity and liked by everyone. When we left the bar last night, he went back to his apartment and shot himself. Somehow by fate, the bullet missed his major organs, but punctured his lung. He's not in critical condition at the hospital and everyone is waiting to see how he comes out. Its odd though. I was looking through the pictures that I took last night and when I came across the one of me and him, it stopped me. It really made me realize how things can dramatically change in the blink of an eye. Suicide is such an odd thing. In a way, you can't be that upset because it was the conclusion that they came to as the only way for happiness. Sometimes, that's understandable. True, as many would say, suicide is extremley selfish. You never know what kind of impact you have made on someone until your're not there. I've been surprised at times running into people from the past and realizing how much they remember about me and what they thought of me. I had a guy come up to me the other day who told me he had thought about me everyday of his middle school career; I was the impossible out of boundaries cheerleader to him. It was funny, I hadnt ever seen him in my life. Even if I ever got so bad, just to imagine how my sister would be is uncomprehensible. My sister is amazing. She is so smart and so pretty. I'm so incredibly happy to have her, she is perfect. I know the old her and I get, the closer we will become. She is five years younger, which isnt too much, but it still possesses some age boundry problems currently. She sent me a text message today that said she was so happy that I was her sister, but she prefers to call me best friend rather than sister. How sweet is that? Wow, Im really scatterbrained tonight and keep getting distracted. A week ago another one of my friends was stabbed, he is alright though. He's expelled from this school now and I reckon I probably wont see him much any more. My boyfriend got a puppy today. It's a great dane. Great danes are cute but theyre so BIG! Im trying to talk him into getting me a kitten so they would be friends (the great dane and the cat that is). My boyfriend and the cat being friends is a different story haha. Im going to California in a couple weeks! Im so excited. I would give anything to get away from here right now. Im so bored of everything and this town offers me nothing any more. I want something in my life to dramatically change, I need that right now. Anway, I have one more final tomorrow so I suppose Ill try to get some rest for it. Goodnight