Weird night
Poor Mav. Seriously, having women go through every single place in his house and throw out stuff that he might have wanted to keep. But yeah, once they were done the place was looking top notch. Plus we found a couple of working nintendo systems and games. I gotta remember to grab it next time and play a few games.
The evening/night was not good in some ways but it was great in others. I started getting trashed before 9pm! I should have stopped there but I was having way too much fun sitting around chatting with people (mainly Danny and Rach) and just having a good talk and a laugh. Unfortunatly I didn't know when to stop. I hit a point where I had a billion thoughts racing in my head at once and I flipped out. It was silly and I know I'm bigger then that (Thanks again for the advice Rach, the bill is higher now. lol) but yeah, I didn't like that point. I was freaking out because of many reasons and even now I don't know why properly. I guess a lot of shit I've locked away over the years finally caused me to snap. But it was needed, as silly as it was.
I've decided to look into some professional help. There's only so much a verbal butt kicking from Rach & Dee that will help.
As I'm sitting here, I've come to realise some good from all this. Last night opened my eyes to how much of an idiot I can be as well as remembering to pace my drinks and know when to stop. But yeah, I'm getting what people have said about me needing to be happy with me before I can do the whole relationship thing.
I know there is good in me, or else I wouldn't have the friends I do. I know I am a pushover sometimes and can be too forgiving, but in these times where everyone is over stressed and shit, there needs to be a couple of people who can chill and forgive anything. I know there is more to me and it just needs to come out, plus a new look wouldn't help. :P
Rant over, class dismissed... Except for you jerome...
Neverending soda!
~later dayz~
The evening/night was not good in some ways but it was great in others. I started getting trashed before 9pm! I should have stopped there but I was having way too much fun sitting around chatting with people (mainly Danny and Rach) and just having a good talk and a laugh. Unfortunatly I didn't know when to stop. I hit a point where I had a billion thoughts racing in my head at once and I flipped out. It was silly and I know I'm bigger then that (Thanks again for the advice Rach, the bill is higher now. lol) but yeah, I didn't like that point. I was freaking out because of many reasons and even now I don't know why properly. I guess a lot of shit I've locked away over the years finally caused me to snap. But it was needed, as silly as it was.
I've decided to look into some professional help. There's only so much a verbal butt kicking from Rach & Dee that will help.
As I'm sitting here, I've come to realise some good from all this. Last night opened my eyes to how much of an idiot I can be as well as remembering to pace my drinks and know when to stop. But yeah, I'm getting what people have said about me needing to be happy with me before I can do the whole relationship thing.
I know there is good in me, or else I wouldn't have the friends I do. I know I am a pushover sometimes and can be too forgiving, but in these times where everyone is over stressed and shit, there needs to be a couple of people who can chill and forgive anything. I know there is more to me and it just needs to come out, plus a new look wouldn't help. :P
Rant over, class dismissed... Except for you jerome...
Neverending soda!
~later dayz~