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I tried really hard to accept whats happened and just move it. Its proving hard to do. I started letting my anger out on the walk to Knox to meet Greer. I went nuts, to the point where I wanted to turn around, walk back home and not talk to anyone ever again. This whole thing has made me lose trust in people. So it made the meeting with Greer not as good as it would have been in yesterday never happened. I tried really hard to be happy and confident, but it was a lie. Truth was that I felt like shit.
I dunno if this was a worse idea or a better one, but I saw them both (Rach & Dan) this afternoon. For some reason I was fine talking to Rachel, but once Dan showed up and they were near each other I turned cold. I guess its just me dealing with it. I did apologize to Rach about it and we agreed that it was better to get it out of the way so things can mend.
Like I said to her, I want to see my friends again.
It still hurts, a lot, but I'll deal.
Maybe disappearing for a while is a good idea. I don't know about anything anymore.
I dunno if this was a worse idea or a better one, but I saw them both (Rach & Dan) this afternoon. For some reason I was fine talking to Rachel, but once Dan showed up and they were near each other I turned cold. I guess its just me dealing with it. I did apologize to Rach about it and we agreed that it was better to get it out of the way so things can mend.
Like I said to her, I want to see my friends again.
It still hurts, a lot, but I'll deal.
Maybe disappearing for a while is a good idea. I don't know about anything anymore.