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I was advised that this would be good, so here goes.
I found out who the new guy Rachel's with is.... and its Danny/FoxyMcRiggs
It hurts more then I can ever express with words. They didn't mean for it to happen and I understand that. But it feels like Rachel ripped my heart out and Danny stabbed me in teh back at the same time. At this point in time I really don't want to know them even though I just got through talking face to face with Rachel. It hurts me more then they will ever know, even if they have been through it before. I was barely able to look Rachel in the face, I have no idea if I'll be able to look at Dan without wanting to hurt him. I know its not his fault, but in my mind it feels like he has stolen her from me. A wrong way to think I know, but its whats going on in there right now.
This whole thing has fucked up my thinking and self confidence big time. I'm meeting Greer tomorrow, who is a wonderful girl, but I have doubts in my mind because of this. But I'm trying not to let it stop me from going out and meeting Greer. I have some sort of feeling that meeting her is the right thing to do.
But yeah, this situation is very fucked up. It hurts on many levels. I'll try and write out more if I can.
Danny, if you read this I ask only two things from you:
1 - Make her happy
2 - Don't flaut it in front of me. Try to keep things private please. Just for a little while till I have delt with my own feelings.
I found out who the new guy Rachel's with is.... and its Danny/FoxyMcRiggs
It hurts more then I can ever express with words. They didn't mean for it to happen and I understand that. But it feels like Rachel ripped my heart out and Danny stabbed me in teh back at the same time. At this point in time I really don't want to know them even though I just got through talking face to face with Rachel. It hurts me more then they will ever know, even if they have been through it before. I was barely able to look Rachel in the face, I have no idea if I'll be able to look at Dan without wanting to hurt him. I know its not his fault, but in my mind it feels like he has stolen her from me. A wrong way to think I know, but its whats going on in there right now.
This whole thing has fucked up my thinking and self confidence big time. I'm meeting Greer tomorrow, who is a wonderful girl, but I have doubts in my mind because of this. But I'm trying not to let it stop me from going out and meeting Greer. I have some sort of feeling that meeting her is the right thing to do.
But yeah, this situation is very fucked up. It hurts on many levels. I'll try and write out more if I can.
Danny, if you read this I ask only two things from you:
1 - Make her happy
2 - Don't flaut it in front of me. Try to keep things private please. Just for a little while till I have delt with my own feelings.