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I just came to the realization that for my husband to be happy, I will need to be a completely different person.
Or alternatively, for me to be happy, he will have to be a completely different person.
How does this shit happen? How do you convince yourself at the beginning that everything will sort itself out? Guess what self. It didn't. Five years later, you are still madly in love with him, but nothing has been sorted out and what will make him happy is going to make you miserable.
Or maybe it is that you have no idea what will fulfill you as a human being, but dammit he seems to know what will satisfy his soul, so why not support him while you figure your own shit out?
But if that's the case? When will I get the chance to figure it out. That was what college was for and I am only MORE confused than I was four years ago when I started this little higher education escapade.
I know that I'm lost. I just have no idea where I thought I was going anymore.
Or alternatively, for me to be happy, he will have to be a completely different person.
How does this shit happen? How do you convince yourself at the beginning that everything will sort itself out? Guess what self. It didn't. Five years later, you are still madly in love with him, but nothing has been sorted out and what will make him happy is going to make you miserable.
Or maybe it is that you have no idea what will fulfill you as a human being, but dammit he seems to know what will satisfy his soul, so why not support him while you figure your own shit out?
But if that's the case? When will I get the chance to figure it out. That was what college was for and I am only MORE confused than I was four years ago when I started this little higher education escapade.
I know that I'm lost. I just have no idea where I thought I was going anymore.