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Today was the first productive day I've had the entire summer.
Oh all right I admit it, exaggerations galore, but I did accomplish spades on my Summer To Do list. I only have three and a half weeks left.
And my list is long and consuming.
If I could find my camera I would take pictures of all the progress I made today, my study is finally organized and clean. I still haven't figured out if I want the room to be fun and silly, or a semi-professional workspace. My geek paraphernalia stacked up on one side of the room. Professional prints, framed artwork, and some of my Design I work sit on the other.
They stare each other down in an eternal stand off between my younger and current selves. To hell with it, all of it will grace my walls. CLUTTER BE DAMNED.
Yeah I'm feeling better. Abbey's day at school gave me a whole ten hours of ME TIME. I once told a friend a long time ago that she wouldn't be able to handle being a mother, because she'd constantly be telling the child she needed her "ME TIME".
I now eat those words, flash fried with a delightful white wine sauce. While I love being a mother, my depression is stringing me out with the stress of constantly being at the beck and call of a small little being. Who I happen to love more than myself or anyone else, so double that dose of anxiety. Next summer I will be taking courses so Abbey can do half days at the daycare. So mommy can have her eight hours of keeping it together, and the emotional energy to dedicate to her daughter.
Other than that money sucks right now, why hello there poverty line! How you doin'? But aside from financial CRISIS, everything else is getting much. Much. Better. I look forward to the day I won't have to brace for the next backhanded slap of fate. I think it's progress that I believe that day still exists for me.
Pea. Ess: I say, without shame, that Mamma Mia! is my second favorite movie of the summer and I will be going again as soon as I can. Dark Knight (numero uno) leaves me in a state of emotional fall out, I can't see it without ending up crying in both good and bad ways. Mamma Mia! alternatively leaves me optimistic, in good spirits, and motivated.
Go figure.
Oh all right I admit it, exaggerations galore, but I did accomplish spades on my Summer To Do list. I only have three and a half weeks left.
And my list is long and consuming.
If I could find my camera I would take pictures of all the progress I made today, my study is finally organized and clean. I still haven't figured out if I want the room to be fun and silly, or a semi-professional workspace. My geek paraphernalia stacked up on one side of the room. Professional prints, framed artwork, and some of my Design I work sit on the other.
They stare each other down in an eternal stand off between my younger and current selves. To hell with it, all of it will grace my walls. CLUTTER BE DAMNED.
Yeah I'm feeling better. Abbey's day at school gave me a whole ten hours of ME TIME. I once told a friend a long time ago that she wouldn't be able to handle being a mother, because she'd constantly be telling the child she needed her "ME TIME".
I now eat those words, flash fried with a delightful white wine sauce. While I love being a mother, my depression is stringing me out with the stress of constantly being at the beck and call of a small little being. Who I happen to love more than myself or anyone else, so double that dose of anxiety. Next summer I will be taking courses so Abbey can do half days at the daycare. So mommy can have her eight hours of keeping it together, and the emotional energy to dedicate to her daughter.
Other than that money sucks right now, why hello there poverty line! How you doin'? But aside from financial CRISIS, everything else is getting much. Much. Better. I look forward to the day I won't have to brace for the next backhanded slap of fate. I think it's progress that I believe that day still exists for me.
Pea. Ess: I say, without shame, that Mamma Mia! is my second favorite movie of the summer and I will be going again as soon as I can. Dark Knight (numero uno) leaves me in a state of emotional fall out, I can't see it without ending up crying in both good and bad ways. Mamma Mia! alternatively leaves me optimistic, in good spirits, and motivated.
Go figure.