I'm scared to be alone.... .
All right. So where am I now? Well I'm pissed off and feeling helpless.
So for the morning/afternoon I've been hanging out at my place with Chandler and Mikey. Well Mikey has been flirting with me throughout the morning and it's nothing that I was putting a stop to or really engaging either. Well it seems that Chandler saw Mikey give me a kiss and then decided to leave and make it very clear to me that the reason he was leaving was because of this act. Sending him a message he tells me to just "have fun" which was not going to happen and Mikey had left by that point. So now I feel overly alone and without a clue because one of my close friends that I am very much in need of currently is pissed off at me for this action that wasn't my fault. It's pouring down rain and I feel the want to go after him, I believe he's at Steven's place, but I don't know what it would get me in the long run. He's going to be mad, but I wish he would talk to me about it rather then just stroming out of my place because something wasn't to par in his mind.
I feel just like utter shit. My head still fucking hurts and the bite mark has became a very nice sized lump and mark on my arm. I think the best thing for me to do will be to take a shower, since I haven't for a day or two and I feel just ick. But even with that I'm worried about the water hitting my head since it's still a pretty sore spot. Anyway after I take the shower I'll take a walk. Yes I know it's pouring rain, but I don't know what else to do. I don't feel right in this apartment alone at the moment. I only wish I had more people to lean on sometimes.
Call me if you have my number. Or message me. I'm off to shower and I'll see what my phone says when I get out. But I might end up walking.
All are welcome here to keep me company by the way.... if you wanted.
- J
So for the morning/afternoon I've been hanging out at my place with Chandler and Mikey. Well Mikey has been flirting with me throughout the morning and it's nothing that I was putting a stop to or really engaging either. Well it seems that Chandler saw Mikey give me a kiss and then decided to leave and make it very clear to me that the reason he was leaving was because of this act. Sending him a message he tells me to just "have fun" which was not going to happen and Mikey had left by that point. So now I feel overly alone and without a clue because one of my close friends that I am very much in need of currently is pissed off at me for this action that wasn't my fault. It's pouring down rain and I feel the want to go after him, I believe he's at Steven's place, but I don't know what it would get me in the long run. He's going to be mad, but I wish he would talk to me about it rather then just stroming out of my place because something wasn't to par in his mind.
I feel just like utter shit. My head still fucking hurts and the bite mark has became a very nice sized lump and mark on my arm. I think the best thing for me to do will be to take a shower, since I haven't for a day or two and I feel just ick. But even with that I'm worried about the water hitting my head since it's still a pretty sore spot. Anyway after I take the shower I'll take a walk. Yes I know it's pouring rain, but I don't know what else to do. I don't feel right in this apartment alone at the moment. I only wish I had more people to lean on sometimes.
Call me if you have my number. Or message me. I'm off to shower and I'll see what my phone says when I get out. But I might end up walking.
All are welcome here to keep me company by the way.... if you wanted.
- J