There's a strom coming.
Being that i've been in a mood most of the day more or less, I wanted to go get a drink. I didn't want to go out, although now I somewhat do. So I send a message to Carmen and ask if she'd like to hit up the grill and get some food. She replies no money. I suggest I'll buy her a drink along with mine and get me foods(since she'd said she was eating). She then says she'll be here shortly and we'll go. Well then in the blink of an eye it's "I have to get my sister from work at 1030." now it's just turning to 8 when she sent this. but having to get her sister over two hours from the time we'd be heading to eat made it where she couldn't join this venture. But I was to go and have fun. Replying that I wasn't going to go eat alone and that now I'd probably just end up going to the store to find something that I could make easily and will not enjoy as much as the plan that we'd now made and canceled, she offered to drive me to the store. Well the damn store is like 5 blocks away. I can walk there, buy what I need, and be home cooking before she'd even get to my house, because of course she runs on what Kevin and I have dubbed "Carmen Time" which is not measurable in any sense but it does take longer than normal time and it's always inexplicably longer then it should be.
Now I'm pissed. At her. And, maybe it's being a little prick, maybe it's being selfish, but I think that if she's to tell me she can do something and then back out of it that the LIE should be just a little bit better then "Oh I need to be somewhere in a little OVER TWO HOURS from now." But then again.... That's just how I see the world.
Oh, and she said "I'm sorry you're upset." which as anyone knows is the way to say "I'm not sorry at all, but I am saying sorry and it's not a lie, because I'm sorry that YOU feel that way. Although I've said sorry it has nothing to do with anything that I've done."
I'm a little upset. I need to find the bills, deal with the money stuff at home, and call Chuck again. He, at times, can be very calming for me. And I probably shouldn't listen to Death Can For Cutie much longer.
Now I'm pissed. At her. And, maybe it's being a little prick, maybe it's being selfish, but I think that if she's to tell me she can do something and then back out of it that the LIE should be just a little bit better then "Oh I need to be somewhere in a little OVER TWO HOURS from now." But then again.... That's just how I see the world.
Oh, and she said "I'm sorry you're upset." which as anyone knows is the way to say "I'm not sorry at all, but I am saying sorry and it's not a lie, because I'm sorry that YOU feel that way. Although I've said sorry it has nothing to do with anything that I've done."
I'm a little upset. I need to find the bills, deal with the money stuff at home, and call Chuck again. He, at times, can be very calming for me. And I probably shouldn't listen to Death Can For Cutie much longer.