I know you're wondering when.
I’m sorry. I’m sorry for everything hurtful thing I’ve done to any of you whether I realize I’ve done it or not. I’m sorry for disappearing and not bothering to contact any of you. I’m especially sorry that I didn’t write back those who wrote me. I’m sorry that I post things without thinking about how they’ll affect other people. It’s like that TLC life lessons commercial about merlot and email not mixing; only with me, it’s mania and updating. I guess the problem with this website being named “livejournal” is that if you take that mashed-up word literally, as I often find myself doing without thinking, you end up pouring things out you’d usually only write in a locked paper journal and you do it as they happen because the internet and the update button are right there. Sometimes, I have no filter and no tact. Things that are in my head just come out as I’m thinking them. I often cross the line between honest and too honest. I can also be impatient. I expect things to happen, like, yesterday. As my good friend, Nick, often says to me: “Hey, Kerry, you’re on step 35 there, mind letting the rest of us back on step 1 catch up?”
So, I offer this: My very own version of livejournal amnesty day. Take me off your friends list, put me back on, tell me exactly what you think of me with no holds bared (I’ll likely just respond with “okay” or “thanks for letting me know”), pass this on to anyone who you think needs to read it, offer me advice (I’ll be grateful, trust me), tell me something you’ve always wanted to but didn’t for whatever reason, point and laugh at me in asterisks, offer me a sign of peace, or whatever you feel like doing. As long as you do something, in your own time, to let me know… well, I don’t know, something. It’s up to you. But no pressure, of course.
In case I haven’t made it clear lately, I really appreciate those of you who have been with me through thick and thin. If I can do something for you, just ask. Maybe I won’t be able to do it today. Maybe I won’t be able to do it tomorrow, but I promise that I’ll make the effort and get it done someday, somehow.
Also, anonymous commenting is on and IP logging is off. Have at it.
So, I offer this: My very own version of livejournal amnesty day. Take me off your friends list, put me back on, tell me exactly what you think of me with no holds bared (I’ll likely just respond with “okay” or “thanks for letting me know”), pass this on to anyone who you think needs to read it, offer me advice (I’ll be grateful, trust me), tell me something you’ve always wanted to but didn’t for whatever reason, point and laugh at me in asterisks, offer me a sign of peace, or whatever you feel like doing. As long as you do something, in your own time, to let me know… well, I don’t know, something. It’s up to you. But no pressure, of course.
In case I haven’t made it clear lately, I really appreciate those of you who have been with me through thick and thin. If I can do something for you, just ask. Maybe I won’t be able to do it today. Maybe I won’t be able to do it tomorrow, but I promise that I’ll make the effort and get it done someday, somehow.
Also, anonymous commenting is on and IP logging is off. Have at it.