constant vacation
i apologize first to anyone who hasn't had vacation in a while... i suggest that you just don't read this post....
i'm ready to get back to a routine... i need to get back to a routine... and i have no clue when that will happen... right now i'm at dave's parents' house... this tour is lasting way too long and i just need to feel settled... i need to know where my life is going... i need to feel like everything is going to work itself out... i don't want to be living out of suitcases and boxes... i want to have all of my stuff in one place... i want to know what my apartment will look like... i want to know where and when my next pay check will be deposited in my bank... i need to feel useful in my life and in society... when i sit and don't do anything (ie the last 3 weeks) i fall into this hole this pit... and that's were i am and i feel stuck and i want out... and i know that i have a minimum of 3 more weeks of this and what terrifies me is i feel it might wind up being 9 months or longer
i'm ready to get back to a routine... i need to get back to a routine... and i have no clue when that will happen... right now i'm at dave's parents' house... this tour is lasting way too long and i just need to feel settled... i need to know where my life is going... i need to feel like everything is going to work itself out... i don't want to be living out of suitcases and boxes... i want to have all of my stuff in one place... i want to know what my apartment will look like... i want to know where and when my next pay check will be deposited in my bank... i need to feel useful in my life and in society... when i sit and don't do anything (ie the last 3 weeks) i fall into this hole this pit... and that's were i am and i feel stuck and i want out... and i know that i have a minimum of 3 more weeks of this and what terrifies me is i feel it might wind up being 9 months or longer