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well, kevin skipped school and drove to Jackson with neal to meet me.
i think he's disappointed. i don't think i look like he thought i would. i don't think i'm anything like he pictured me. he was really quiet (totally unlike him) and he barely looked at me. after about 10 minutes of actually being here, he goes, "i think we should leave." so he gave me this hug like he didn't want to touch me, but he had to. and then they were off.
i don't know what else to say. i kinda feel like something's ending. it feels like the fantasy relationship we created is ending and something new and scary is beginning. i don't know what he feels. i don't know what his reaction was. or is. we'll see when he calls next.
which might be never.
i think he's disappointed. i don't think i look like he thought i would. i don't think i'm anything like he pictured me. he was really quiet (totally unlike him) and he barely looked at me. after about 10 minutes of actually being here, he goes, "i think we should leave." so he gave me this hug like he didn't want to touch me, but he had to. and then they were off.
i don't know what else to say. i kinda feel like something's ending. it feels like the fantasy relationship we created is ending and something new and scary is beginning. i don't know what he feels. i don't know what his reaction was. or is. we'll see when he calls next.
which might be never.