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well, i tried to post the pics of matthew guinn in here, but NOOO it won't let me. sometimes i think this journal is being gay just for the heck of it. i just love it when that happens.
but so i'm meeting him tonight at the football game... i think. he's going to call me (?) on my cell phone when he gets to the game or something. i don't really know. but i'm feeling a mix of excitement, anxiousness, nervousness, and the need to throw up. i haven't really "met" someone in a while. after the whole thing with whatever, i just kind of figured it'd be best to give up. but here i am, counting down until 7 o'clock, when i'll be at the game, and, hopefully, near him.
sounds kinda like i'm in love with him doesn't it? wow i just realized how pathetic this may sound to whoever reads this. i barely know this kid. we've never met before, and we've been talking online and a bit on the phone, but that's it. so why am i so scared? why do i have the feeling that this night is going to turn out to be a disappointment to one or both of us? meh... it sucks being a girl. you have to be all cute and dainty and crap. nails, hair, clothes... shoes, make up. it's all a bunch of crap, if you ask me.
i should just go in jeans and a sweatshirt. i won't, but i should.