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this is matt. for everyone who doesn't know what he looks like, this is his senior picture. thanks to brian and kendra for getting this pic to me. this is my closure. this is my last entry about him. he isn't in my life anymore, and it feels like he died. this is the picture i'll be seeing everytime i think about his death. that's it, you guys. i'm done with this kid. this is the way i'm going to mourn my loss. but i'm not going to mourn anymore. i loved him, i lost him. but that's okay. i was ready for something he wasn't. i was ready to be his, but he was never going to be mine. but this is it. i can't talk about him anymore. and i'm sure that's a relief to many.
my heart broke, but now it's time to mend.