It's Amazing How Being Open Can Get You In So Much Trouble
Ugh, I know it's been awhile since I've updated here, so I've decided that it was time to. There's been so much shit--pardon my french--going on it's not even funny. I love how hypocritical and egocentric people can be. For example, I'm not the type of person who openly talks about my feelings, but if I feel as if I can trust you, I will then; however, if you want me to be honest, you have to be prepared to listen what I have to say and not jump to conclusions. Well, if I tell you that I've already said what I needed to say, don't bagger me to tell you what's on my mind. It makes me feel highly uncomfortable and then you, the one who is baggering me, will become the new focus of my frustration and you have to be prepared for that. As my mom would say, "no means no" but there are those select few who won't listen and that just makes me even more angry. The only thing I want to do in that situation is scream, "LISTEN TO ME!!!!!!!!!" Most of the time, that just gets me into even more trouble. Ugh, that just aggervates me so much...this just reiterates the reasons why I rarely express my feelings to people. I have those select few I can trust, but if I can't trust those who I hang out with the most, that just really hurts and just makes me feel like...blah. And then there are those people who I thought were my friends who have completely abandoned me. That's an even greater feeling, let me tell you. But, as much as it urks me that they don't even give me the time of day, it doesn't bother me. Apparently, they weren't my real friends, and you know what? It's okay. I'm used to being used and I've learned to accept it, and move on. I'm going to have so much more fun at Chat-town and I'm super stoked and super nervous. I hope I have better luck fitting in there than I did elsewhere. I think that with the fact that there's going to be more people and more opporotunities to find something that really interests me. Well, the door of opprotunity is always open, I just need to walk through it.