what do I want?

[eatrice]

I have no idea how to sart to answer this question.
but I will anyway.
I want security, and by that I mean:
I want my own place to live.
I want someone with me at the end of the day.
I want someone I can talkto about my problems, and that I can get to know.
I want someone to share paying the bills.
I want someone to cook for, and have a date night every week with.
I want someone to smile and encourage me in life.
I want my husband to be a leader, who reminds me to pray, and teaches me about love and what it means to be loved.
I want to be loved even when I am angry.
I want to be reminded when I start to panic that everything is going to be okay and as a team we can work thru this issue.
I want to pay off my credit.
I want to watch my son play soccer and football. (I hope he likes those sports)
I want to be involved with my family, and be a good mother.
I want to be held, I need that to make up for my discomfort with physical closeness to others.
I want to be accepted.
I want to be a part of the church...in ministry somehow.
I want a husband who has the weekends off.
I want someone to share my freetime with.
I want a man who won't let things fall apart.
I don't want to be yelled at.
I don't want to be ignored.
I don't want to be robbed
I don't want to feel like I am being taken advantage of.
I don't want to be alone.
I want my son to be cherished.
I want my son to have role models.
I want my son to feel safe sharing his fears with me.
I want to know my son as he grows older, and I want the opportunities and time in order to do that.
I want to know my nieghbors.
I want some consistency.

I guess once I get started I am filled with ideas.
Now I need to asses whether or not I can get any of the things I want from where I am at today.
I want to have traditional family filled hoildays.
I want a family game night with my nieghbors or extended family or church family.
I want quality relationships.