I think...

[eatmyleftshoe]

I think i need to grow up a little and make myself come out of the comfort zone. I need to stuff away all the unneccessary/insignificant. I need to focus and just do what I need to do right now. School's not going to be easy, especially when you need to get your knee to keep going. Everytime before I step into the physio room, I have to tell myself that I'm going to be better no matter what. Everytime I leave school for physio, I'd feel horrible. Because I do not really get time with my friends, and I'm afraid I'll just shy away and drift from everybody. Sam & all sweet ones accompanied me to ice my knee, but I really wanted to be alone. Okay, not really. But I felt very much like a burden/nusiance. I don't like depending on people, but then again sometimes I need a little emotional support. Oh, this is such a screwed up thought. Yes and no. I don't know how to describe how I feel but there's so much to do. The physio said I'm not icing my knee enough to bring the swelling down. I didn't want to get nagged at, so I said I iced 4times today already. But in actual fact, I only had time to ice my knee once. How? I know it's difficult for people who do not understand about the knee and its injuries, I don't know how I should be explaining too, and I don't think I should even talk about my knee cos' it's just something you have to go through it yourself and be strong about it. I'm not asking for anyone to understand, I'm just ... whining i think.

What's a good pain? What's a bad pain?
What's a good clicking sound? And what's a bad one?

Give me strength now, I need to get pass this.