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I hate this, I just want to get out out out but I have fucking obligations to stay right where I am. I really need out right now. As if running means I can actually escape anything. Well it might not actually solve anything, but at least it seems to help a little bit for the timebeing. I just want to get the fuck away from it all, even though it's really just myself I'm running away from. Can't run away from your emotions, right? Fuck that. Temporary displacement can at the least provide distraction. I can't sleep, even when I'm deprived I always wake up after a few hours. (Like right now.)
The only thing that's worse than going to bed feeling like shit is waking up feeling like shit. And don't get me wrong, there's nothing going on AROUND me that sucks. I might even classify my day-to-day life as being pretty good...well, almost. But that's not the whole picture, now is it?
I know myself. There's no escaping this one for a while. I try to see the good in everything, but sometimes that's just not enough.
I need that balance shit.
The only thing that's worse than going to bed feeling like shit is waking up feeling like shit. And don't get me wrong, there's nothing going on AROUND me that sucks. I might even classify my day-to-day life as being pretty good...well, almost. But that's not the whole picture, now is it?
I know myself. There's no escaping this one for a while. I try to see the good in everything, but sometimes that's just not enough.
I need that balance shit.