if i crack i feel ill never go back
so for you that don't know im moving back to tonawanda in my grandparents upstair apartment.....i was super excited the first few days because id be closer to friends and family....but for the pass few nights all i've been doing is crying i don't want to be so far from travis and what happens if i let my grandparents down....i don't have to pay rent or bills i just have to clean around the house....as busy as i am i feel i wouldn't be there very much ill get the cleaning done but i feel they may be mad at me being out so much, between work, school , travis and friends things will be crazy....and im still going to want to spend alot of nights with travis....and im getting so stressed with all this packing and the only person thats helping me with all the packing is my brother(who has 3 kids to take care of) but still is doing everything he can to help....ahhhhhhhhhhh.....im just so flipping out on so many levels i knew i have to move because i have no money till i get my first check and i cant afford this apartment and with my grandmas cancer back she needs my help....why the fuck would anyone want to live... the bad far out weighs the good i cant take much more of this