couting calories...yet again
after doing the math, i've consumed somewhere around 929 calories today. not very proud of that.
i went to mybodycomp.com and found out some interesting stats:
waist/hip ratio: .81
lean body mass(lbm):95lbs
body fat percentage: 17.99%
fat mass(fm): 21 lbs.
i dont really know what to think about those numbers...but i do know that im not pleased.
i feel like ive gone so many meals without eating and waking up in the middle of the night starving for nothing. you can't notice, and nobody says anything. 2 things that were good: my english teacher told me i looked like a fencer (becuase i was so 'slender') and i was at my friends house and wanted to wear some of her pants, but they literally fell off me. and i tried on about 3 pairs. that makes me smile.
when i get discouraged like this, which is every other day, i feel like giving up. but then i see something, or some one. this weekend it was my friend who was recently diagnosed anorexic. its disgusting, but she inspires me. shes in treatment, and shes gaining weight. we are coming from totally different ends. she wants to gain , and i want to loose. to get a mental picture shes 5'6 and 100( really 99), but now shes at 108. ugh... i could go on forever about her. but the one thing that i dont get, whenever we are together, or we talk about "it" i want to cry. cry hard. i dont really get that...
i went to mybodycomp.com and found out some interesting stats:
waist/hip ratio: .81
lean body mass(lbm):95lbs
body fat percentage: 17.99%
fat mass(fm): 21 lbs.
i dont really know what to think about those numbers...but i do know that im not pleased.
i feel like ive gone so many meals without eating and waking up in the middle of the night starving for nothing. you can't notice, and nobody says anything. 2 things that were good: my english teacher told me i looked like a fencer (becuase i was so 'slender') and i was at my friends house and wanted to wear some of her pants, but they literally fell off me. and i tried on about 3 pairs. that makes me smile.
when i get discouraged like this, which is every other day, i feel like giving up. but then i see something, or some one. this weekend it was my friend who was recently diagnosed anorexic. its disgusting, but she inspires me. shes in treatment, and shes gaining weight. we are coming from totally different ends. she wants to gain , and i want to loose. to get a mental picture shes 5'6 and 100( really 99), but now shes at 108. ugh... i could go on forever about her. but the one thing that i dont get, whenever we are together, or we talk about "it" i want to cry. cry hard. i dont really get that...