dreeeam weaver
last night at about 2:30am, justin woke me up with a rather unsettling phone call that i won't get into the details of here. but it sparked 2 things i do want to mention...
when i finally got back to sleep, i had the strangest dream. it really combined a whole lot of different stimuli from the day... i was on a holiday party on a boat (not sure where the boat came from... maybe because i got my cruise pics back), and on the boat i met the bass player from gin blossoms (i guess because i was listening to them), but his name was austin winkler (the name of the singer from hinder, a band that i work and am seeing on monday) and he didn't look like anyone that i know at all or anyone i'd be really attracted to anyway. but in the dream i was hanging out with him on the boat and we had polaroid cameras (because i saw it on oprah) and i was trying to get him to take a picture with me so i could show justin to piss him off (because he likes gin blossoms and i hate him)... it was very odd.
second, i discovered a new way to make yourself feel better over an ex. of course there's destroying his belongings, which i did, but here's a good one: go xmas shopping for things you would buy him but would be happy to keep for yourself! for example, i bought a heated blanket because hes always cold and i will keep it and hope he freezes to death, and i bought some vintage tour t-shirts that he would love and i will wear them in front of him and look awesome. add some extra joy to your holiday season by shopping for someone you hate and keeping the gifts!!
if you didn't get the point by now, i'm really angry with justin. i think i'm finally ready to dump him as a friend. i feel like i've been so ball-less this whole time, but i'm finally wishing for him to drink himself to death or to move back to wisconsin instead of wishing that he'd realize the error of his ways and want me back. which is a good and which is something i should have felt a while ago. i hate that he works with me. i hate that i dont want to go to our office xmas dinner because of him. i hate that i dont want him to quit because it would reflect on ME and be a hassle to ME. and i hate that after a year and a half, you can feel like you don't even know someone, like you've been conned the whole time and like you could be conned again.
i also wish i were as heartless as he is... then maybe i could sell his drums.
when i finally got back to sleep, i had the strangest dream. it really combined a whole lot of different stimuli from the day... i was on a holiday party on a boat (not sure where the boat came from... maybe because i got my cruise pics back), and on the boat i met the bass player from gin blossoms (i guess because i was listening to them), but his name was austin winkler (the name of the singer from hinder, a band that i work and am seeing on monday) and he didn't look like anyone that i know at all or anyone i'd be really attracted to anyway. but in the dream i was hanging out with him on the boat and we had polaroid cameras (because i saw it on oprah) and i was trying to get him to take a picture with me so i could show justin to piss him off (because he likes gin blossoms and i hate him)... it was very odd.
second, i discovered a new way to make yourself feel better over an ex. of course there's destroying his belongings, which i did, but here's a good one: go xmas shopping for things you would buy him but would be happy to keep for yourself! for example, i bought a heated blanket because hes always cold and i will keep it and hope he freezes to death, and i bought some vintage tour t-shirts that he would love and i will wear them in front of him and look awesome. add some extra joy to your holiday season by shopping for someone you hate and keeping the gifts!!
if you didn't get the point by now, i'm really angry with justin. i think i'm finally ready to dump him as a friend. i feel like i've been so ball-less this whole time, but i'm finally wishing for him to drink himself to death or to move back to wisconsin instead of wishing that he'd realize the error of his ways and want me back. which is a good and which is something i should have felt a while ago. i hate that he works with me. i hate that i dont want to go to our office xmas dinner because of him. i hate that i dont want him to quit because it would reflect on ME and be a hassle to ME. and i hate that after a year and a half, you can feel like you don't even know someone, like you've been conned the whole time and like you could be conned again.
i also wish i were as heartless as he is... then maybe i could sell his drums.