The Feeling

[eatbuck]

you know that feeling?
when you're just waiting.
waiting to get home, into your room,
close the door, go straight to bed.
and just let everything out that you kept in all day.
that feeling of both relief and desperation.
nothing is wrong.
but nothing is right either.
and you're tired.
tired of everything, tired of nothing.
and you just want someone to
be there and tell you its okay.
but no one's going to be there.
and you know you have to be strong
for your self, because no one can fix you
but you're tired of waiting
tired of having to be the one to fix yourself and everyone else.
tired of being strong.
and for once, you just want it to be easy.
to be simple. to be helped. to be saved.
but you know you wont be.
you think you need some miracles
you're hopeless.
but you're still hoping.
and you're still wishing.
and you're still staying strong and fighting.
with tears in your eyes
you're fighting.

It's just blurry feeling