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It's so nice to finally be out and about again. I've had some work, which means going out to get there. It also means having a reason to leave the house otherwise. I can go buy things, treat myself to food and even go out to events.
I think a lot of people would be shocked to know how terrifying it is for me to go out and do things. Really, leaving the house, getting places, interacting with people...the thought of these things makes me really nervous. I can have fun once it all gets started, but I get seriously panicked about a lot of things. I also get pretty depressed when I'm not doing anything, so I have to push myself pretty hard.
Since I've been making some decent money with this peeing business,--did I mention that here?--I was able to go out on Tuesday. I was partially reimbursed, but I knew with drinks and random other expenses that come with hanging out in the City, I'd have to have some money.
By the time the day came, I almost decided not to go. I'd mentioned the possibility of making it to Bella, but since we hadn't made a solid plan, I considered just telling her I couldn't be there. I didn't want to see Joanna Angel, and since she and Bella were supposed to be signing together, I thought she'd be hard to avoid. I also got worried about old vampire business. The event was a birthday celebration for Father Vincent, and I wasn't sure what section of the scene his birthday celebration might draw, so I sat and went through his MySpace friends. I was also a little nervous about social business with someone I'm close to and intimate with and his friends with whom he's also intimate and maybe some other people I have been or want to be int--ok, sleep with. I mean, it's probably not a big deal at all, but I've got this terrible dirty secret complex that makes this sort of thing terribly uncomfortable.
None of that was an issue, though. Joanna didn't show up, unless I missed her. The guy I sort of see had something else to do, but since Bella hadn't even gotten to Otto's when I arrived, we both snuck out of our events for a brief rendezvous at his place. This meant I missed the bands, but I was back in time to perform. I didn't have any vampire issues...except that one kept begging for my number. I even ran into a vampire from the house/clan/whatever with which I'd had serious issues, and there was no problem at all. He's someone I didn't even recognize, but he remember hanging out one night and just wanted to say hello. We chatted for a bit, and was glad to have had that conversation.
So in order to work off my free admission and train fare, I did a little show with Bella. We weren't really sure what to do since we'd discussed this so last-minute, but we figured something out.
After the performance, I did some chatting, made some contacts.... I was really excited about talking to Bob Coulter. He told me he'd really like to work with me, and that makes me pretty happy. His work is amazing. If I'd had a place to crash, I'd have done a shoot with him and Bella the next day, but my post-party plans fell through.
After being pet and scratched by hot girls like a house cat, I had a long conversation with some vegan vampires. I hate to start out by referring to them that way, because they're really interesting, intelligent, cool people, but I just can't get over the novelty of that concept. Their work is pretty amazing, though, and I hope to get to spend some more time with them in the near future.
At the end of the night, I said some goodbyes and wished Vincent a happy birthday. Luckily, things had stayed happening until 4:30. It's awful when you've got nowhere to go until 6am and everyone leaves the bar/club at like 2. Once it was time to leave Otto's, I decided to go the Yaffa Cafe. They're open 24 hours, and though I think their vegetarian selection may have gotten smaller, they weren't too far away, and I could have more than fries or a bagel. From there, I headed back to the train station, took a brief nap and hopped on the 6:41am train home.
Oh, and you know what's really amazing? My drinking! I had two Sparks on the train, maybe even just one and three quarters. I took a couple trains and did some walking to get to Otto's. When I get there, I got a tasty frozen drink and started feeling a little nauseous. I considered canceling my booty call thang, or maybe just asking him to give me spaghetti with some of his amazing sauce instead of sex, but I thought that might be a little rude. The sex actually made me feel better, though, and I headed back out. Besides about five sips of other people's drinks throughout the night, that's all I had! I had the Sparks between 7pm and 8:30, then the frozen drink around 9:15. I had sex around 11, then I got back to the party around 12:20. Maybe this is totally boring to everyone else, but to someone who's socially retarded and tends to be terribly anxious, having a night go this well with so little alcohol seems absolutely crazy, especially since I went down alone. Yup, I'm pretty proud.
I think a lot of people would be shocked to know how terrifying it is for me to go out and do things. Really, leaving the house, getting places, interacting with people...the thought of these things makes me really nervous. I can have fun once it all gets started, but I get seriously panicked about a lot of things. I also get pretty depressed when I'm not doing anything, so I have to push myself pretty hard.
Since I've been making some decent money with this peeing business,--did I mention that here?--I was able to go out on Tuesday. I was partially reimbursed, but I knew with drinks and random other expenses that come with hanging out in the City, I'd have to have some money.
By the time the day came, I almost decided not to go. I'd mentioned the possibility of making it to Bella, but since we hadn't made a solid plan, I considered just telling her I couldn't be there. I didn't want to see Joanna Angel, and since she and Bella were supposed to be signing together, I thought she'd be hard to avoid. I also got worried about old vampire business. The event was a birthday celebration for Father Vincent, and I wasn't sure what section of the scene his birthday celebration might draw, so I sat and went through his MySpace friends. I was also a little nervous about social business with someone I'm close to and intimate with and his friends with whom he's also intimate and maybe some other people I have been or want to be int--ok, sleep with. I mean, it's probably not a big deal at all, but I've got this terrible dirty secret complex that makes this sort of thing terribly uncomfortable.
None of that was an issue, though. Joanna didn't show up, unless I missed her. The guy I sort of see had something else to do, but since Bella hadn't even gotten to Otto's when I arrived, we both snuck out of our events for a brief rendezvous at his place. This meant I missed the bands, but I was back in time to perform. I didn't have any vampire issues...except that one kept begging for my number. I even ran into a vampire from the house/clan/whatever with which I'd had serious issues, and there was no problem at all. He's someone I didn't even recognize, but he remember hanging out one night and just wanted to say hello. We chatted for a bit, and was glad to have had that conversation.
So in order to work off my free admission and train fare, I did a little show with Bella. We weren't really sure what to do since we'd discussed this so last-minute, but we figured something out.
After the performance, I did some chatting, made some contacts.... I was really excited about talking to Bob Coulter. He told me he'd really like to work with me, and that makes me pretty happy. His work is amazing. If I'd had a place to crash, I'd have done a shoot with him and Bella the next day, but my post-party plans fell through.
After being pet and scratched by hot girls like a house cat, I had a long conversation with some vegan vampires. I hate to start out by referring to them that way, because they're really interesting, intelligent, cool people, but I just can't get over the novelty of that concept. Their work is pretty amazing, though, and I hope to get to spend some more time with them in the near future.
At the end of the night, I said some goodbyes and wished Vincent a happy birthday. Luckily, things had stayed happening until 4:30. It's awful when you've got nowhere to go until 6am and everyone leaves the bar/club at like 2. Once it was time to leave Otto's, I decided to go the Yaffa Cafe. They're open 24 hours, and though I think their vegetarian selection may have gotten smaller, they weren't too far away, and I could have more than fries or a bagel. From there, I headed back to the train station, took a brief nap and hopped on the 6:41am train home.
Oh, and you know what's really amazing? My drinking! I had two Sparks on the train, maybe even just one and three quarters. I took a couple trains and did some walking to get to Otto's. When I get there, I got a tasty frozen drink and started feeling a little nauseous. I considered canceling my booty call thang, or maybe just asking him to give me spaghetti with some of his amazing sauce instead of sex, but I thought that might be a little rude. The sex actually made me feel better, though, and I headed back out. Besides about five sips of other people's drinks throughout the night, that's all I had! I had the Sparks between 7pm and 8:30, then the frozen drink around 9:15. I had sex around 11, then I got back to the party around 12:20. Maybe this is totally boring to everyone else, but to someone who's socially retarded and tends to be terribly anxious, having a night go this well with so little alcohol seems absolutely crazy, especially since I went down alone. Yup, I'm pretty proud.