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[eat_sashimi]

im so sick of it. this bullshit that is high school. people are fake. people are phony. people are shallow. they dont express how they really feel, and when they do, they're left out in the cold to die. god forbid the truth come out, because then that makes everything awkward and uncomfortable

this weekend has been one of the worst in recent times. i literally have not done a thing, and im so sick of just being here. i have nobody to go to. nobody to be with. i want to leave los angeles so badly. i want to start college already and just move on with my life. i want to leave my family, i want to lead my own life that i define by my own terms. i want to watch every single reality television show i love and not get shit about it.

i want to be happy.

i want to stop worrying about what i eat and what i dont eat. im sick of being self conscious, sick of worrying about my appearance. and yet it matters; it is vital.

here's to another water bottle, another day full of lebanese meals and chinacos jokes. dont ask.

if only i could say the truth to this one person... i think the person would understand and reciprocate?

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im gonna miss it so bad this summer.