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there are alot of things on my mind lately.
im upset about how some friends have seemed to turn against me.
but whatever, i cant let things like that cramp me anymore.
i seem to spend to much time worrying about everyone else.
im not trying to sound selfish, but idk. im just unhappy.
my lifes like a roller coaster, some days im so happy & others i wish i wasn't here.
i feel like a grain of sand on the beach.
i just feel like ive lost touch with myself. it makes me so sad.
i miss the one person who made me feel on top of the world.
things just arent the same anymore and its shitty.
i feel like he's found happiness elsewhere, and good for him if he has.
hopefully ill be able to do the same someday.. once the wounds of this past relationship have healed, of course.
i miss home. i miss my mom. i miss my friends. i miss new jersey.
yeah rhode islands alright, & my friends here are pretty sweet.
its gloomy & cold out, maybe that has somthing to do with my bummed mood.
on the brighter side of things:
1. amanda & i got an apartment together. im stoked.
2. i got a job, FINALLY. i start tomorrow @ 9:30 am. im a fuckin manager, bitches.
but yeah,
i miss that one boy who knew how to make me the happiest girl alive without doing anything.
fuck.
im going to try my best to make things work. im giving him his space and trying not to interfere with his life,
but its so hard when your feelings are right there. my emotions definitely get the best of me sometimes. it sucks.
ahsdjasdhasjd.
whatevs. im trying to smile.
well see what happens.
peace.
.p
im upset about how some friends have seemed to turn against me.
but whatever, i cant let things like that cramp me anymore.
i seem to spend to much time worrying about everyone else.
im not trying to sound selfish, but idk. im just unhappy.
my lifes like a roller coaster, some days im so happy & others i wish i wasn't here.
i feel like a grain of sand on the beach.
i just feel like ive lost touch with myself. it makes me so sad.
i miss the one person who made me feel on top of the world.
things just arent the same anymore and its shitty.
i feel like he's found happiness elsewhere, and good for him if he has.
hopefully ill be able to do the same someday.. once the wounds of this past relationship have healed, of course.
i miss home. i miss my mom. i miss my friends. i miss new jersey.
yeah rhode islands alright, & my friends here are pretty sweet.
its gloomy & cold out, maybe that has somthing to do with my bummed mood.
on the brighter side of things:
1. amanda & i got an apartment together. im stoked.
2. i got a job, FINALLY. i start tomorrow @ 9:30 am. im a fuckin manager, bitches.
but yeah,
i miss that one boy who knew how to make me the happiest girl alive without doing anything.
fuck.
im going to try my best to make things work. im giving him his space and trying not to interfere with his life,
but its so hard when your feelings are right there. my emotions definitely get the best of me sometimes. it sucks.
ahsdjasdhasjd.
whatevs. im trying to smile.
well see what happens.
peace.
.p