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updates..
-went to homecoming football game yestuhDaii..
-daddy bought a new hummer :) haha
-homecoming 2nite was the funk!!!!!!!!
gizel is in the shower soo im juss wasting time.
sooo this time it really is over. i like it like this.no i lied... i hate it like this..but i feel that we have to do this.. but it hurtsssssssssss soo much. i cant bring myself to think about him and not cry.. i love him.. and wats worse is that i dont wanna get over him.. i REALLY DO TRY.. but i want to be with him soo badly. but i know things are juss gonna get worse if we stay together.. its gonna kill me when he moves on.. i knoe it is.. i cant even think about it. i guess im looking for soo much more in a relationship tho. in a boyfriend. in love. but i wanted it all with him.
but its apparent that i made the right choice.. but it hurts. my heart is broken. but i feel like i can breathe.. figure some things out..who knows wat the future has for us.. be it together or not.. and maybe later be thankful that i was in love at one point.i loved him and he loved me....and i wouldnt trade that for the world.
-went to homecoming football game yestuhDaii..
-daddy bought a new hummer :) haha
-homecoming 2nite was the funk!!!!!!!!
gizel is in the shower soo im juss wasting time.
sooo this time it really is over. i like it like this.no i lied... i hate it like this..but i feel that we have to do this.. but it hurtsssssssssss soo much. i cant bring myself to think about him and not cry.. i love him.. and wats worse is that i dont wanna get over him.. i REALLY DO TRY.. but i want to be with him soo badly. but i know things are juss gonna get worse if we stay together.. its gonna kill me when he moves on.. i knoe it is.. i cant even think about it. i guess im looking for soo much more in a relationship tho. in a boyfriend. in love. but i wanted it all with him.
but its apparent that i made the right choice.. but it hurts. my heart is broken. but i feel like i can breathe.. figure some things out..who knows wat the future has for us.. be it together or not.. and maybe later be thankful that i was in love at one point.i loved him and he loved me....and i wouldnt trade that for the world.