Stuff sorta
I feel like I wanted to post something about him before my last shift with him.
.. hmmm
I did try the 11am service a couple of weeks ago. When I knew he was working. I had only recently learned that that is the service his family attends. No wonder he has been trying to convince me for the last year to try the later service that the "younger folks" attend. When I told him that I went to 11 o'clock service he seemed upset & kinda lit up as well. I explained that I didn't care for it as much as the 0930. He said that his family was going to start going to the 0930. The struggle was just in the fact that his teenagers were able to sleep in for later service. He said they eventually would switch to the 0930 service. Then Thursday when I picked up half a pm shift, he was on. He told me that they are done with the 11 service & now going to attend the 0930. Kinda weird. After a year of not being able to convince me to go to his service, he's coming to mine. And bringing his whole family.
On Thursday night... I spotted him leaving the OB post-op area & I pssst'd him. He immediately turned around & waited for me, asking if I was working & just making small talk. Later I didn't see him much. My pt belonged to dr Truong. After my delivery I was able to recover my pt & transfer her & then time to leave. I was going to call him after transferring my pt, but felt like it would be crossing a line. Hoping he'd come out to the desk, I finished my charting on the pt & got all my stuff to go home. I never saw him. So.....I decided to call him & tell him have a good night. He responds saying he had come out to the desk earlier & didn't see me around so he assumed I had left already. Then we talked about church & he's going to be Jesus on Palm Sunday but it will be his last year. He won't be singing. He also informed me that the choir would be singing this Sunday & that's when he said they were done at the 11 o'clock service. When he said good night we kinda tried to see when we work together next week & then he says, "well, maybe I'll see you on Sunday."
I saw him but I don't know if he saw me. I pretty much confess regarding my feelings for him, every single week.... and yet, I still feel in love with him. I don't know how intense the feelings are on his end.... but I know they are there. He welcomed the fact that I called him to say goodnight. Rather than cutting me short or telling me that it's an inappropriate thing to do.
And I hate that now Erica & Sam give me a hard time regarding him. Oh well though.
Side note-on Tuesday when I worked he had some nice brown collared shirt that looked like it was from the 70s. He was soooooo hot. I didn't have the opportunity to tell him how much I want a pic of him in that with his glasses! 😍😍
Almost forgot!!! Like a week or 2 ago- I had a delivery with him. (Friday before I attended 11am service, I believe.) it was such a long busy day. I was exhausted & didn't get a lunch until after delivery. Beth told me to have carol watch my patients & to go eat. I was kinda bitchy & asked "do I have time to enjoy my food? Or do I need to eat in 5 minutes because you have another assignment for me?" She was nice in her response telling me to enjoy my food. He was standing right there & said he was gonna tell me the pt was bleeding out.
He did come back to the break room after I was in there. Had to put in code twice & then said "you can't keep me away." Then he says the pt was bleeding out. I gave him a hard time about not jinxing it & he should be out there with her. Then ....he got awkward & stuttered as he tells me that after leaving on Christmas vacation he didn't have a chance to tell me thank you for the gift. I just responded "your welcome." And changed the subject to ask how his dad was doing. I was still too nervous to find out if he actually liked it or would use it or not. I did ask before changing the subject "I am your favorite, right?" He laughed & said "of course-You've always been my favorite."
We are so awkward together & yet we can't stay away from the other. We boost each other's egos. And in turn I think it heightens the attraction.