Forgiveness
I can't stop my feelings & I can't stop judging myself.
On many many accounts. But I love this man. I think he has a strong attraction towards me as well. I also honestly believe we both struggle with our morals & our feelings. I have gotten so jealous over a couple of things lately but not made it known. I wanted to but didn't. He's not mine so I have no right &....jealousy is not attractive. I truly feel as though I'm going to marry this man. I will be patient & just be a subordinate at work for now. However I've seen that many people seem to think his marriage must be falling apart....for awhile now. I don't want to be the other woman, although in a way I think I already am. I want to be his best friend, his lover, just simply his....and him to be mine. I wonder if the age gap is too big. Also, I don't want to feel wrong for lusting after him.