shit
I just moved all my stuff downstairs and I currently live in my basement. It's quite nice I suppose. Right near my guitar and drums and stuff. More privacy, room to myself for first time in 18 years. I hung curtains up along the stairs so it feels more private like my own room. Kinda cool.
Ive been sleeping a lot lately, something that's fairly unfamiliar to me. Sleep. That's nice to. But for some reason im still tired. So tired. Work is tiring and boring. Slow season. Tired, tired, tired. I dont know what to do anymore. Im so bored with my life right now. Actually i dont know. Sometimes I am, sometimes I am not. Overally I am just lonely, most of my friends go to school out of town. And the rest will be leaving out of state soon. It sucks. Ive been closer to my friends in Irondequoit which makes me happy. Ive known them for a long time but just now have gotten to really know them. And hanging out more with them is good. I cant just sit around and wait for people to come to me and be my friend. Just gotta take advantage of the relationships I have with people I know now. Even though I am not that great at meeting NEW people. Introducing myself and such. Oh well.
I need a girl in my life again. Maybe that will help with the boringness? the drearyness? maybe..who knows. Lots of things seem so drab as of right now. Just this seasonal depression shit I have going on like always. I dont want to tell any doctors, cause that means meds and other useless mind fucking shit. I can get through it myself. Sometimes it can help with my creativeness too. Musically.
I been doing pushups everynight for some while now. The numbers vary. Sometime 40. Sometime 70. Sometime 100. Depends on how bored I am. Depends on how much time I have. Ah well. I guess its what I have to do. I dont want my body to rot as quickly as Its going to. I just want everyone to move back home and have things the way they used to be. But..that will never happen. damn. Gotta stop wishing for stuff and start doing it. Yeah.
Ive been sleeping a lot lately, something that's fairly unfamiliar to me. Sleep. That's nice to. But for some reason im still tired. So tired. Work is tiring and boring. Slow season. Tired, tired, tired. I dont know what to do anymore. Im so bored with my life right now. Actually i dont know. Sometimes I am, sometimes I am not. Overally I am just lonely, most of my friends go to school out of town. And the rest will be leaving out of state soon. It sucks. Ive been closer to my friends in Irondequoit which makes me happy. Ive known them for a long time but just now have gotten to really know them. And hanging out more with them is good. I cant just sit around and wait for people to come to me and be my friend. Just gotta take advantage of the relationships I have with people I know now. Even though I am not that great at meeting NEW people. Introducing myself and such. Oh well.
I need a girl in my life again. Maybe that will help with the boringness? the drearyness? maybe..who knows. Lots of things seem so drab as of right now. Just this seasonal depression shit I have going on like always. I dont want to tell any doctors, cause that means meds and other useless mind fucking shit. I can get through it myself. Sometimes it can help with my creativeness too. Musically.
I been doing pushups everynight for some while now. The numbers vary. Sometime 40. Sometime 70. Sometime 100. Depends on how bored I am. Depends on how much time I have. Ah well. I guess its what I have to do. I dont want my body to rot as quickly as Its going to. I just want everyone to move back home and have things the way they used to be. But..that will never happen. damn. Gotta stop wishing for stuff and start doing it. Yeah.