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i just watched the bernarda alba dvd. i miss acting so much. its really killing me, how something i love so much isnt present in my life anymore... and theres no reason for it but circumstance. shitty new paltz circumstance.
i miss the times of bernarda alba...and frank sinatra...how close we all got during productions. that sense of family and belonging. how you walk into the theater and you know evferyone and how they all care about you and you care about them, the love was always present.
how we bonded over tyrant directors, and though we all complained i do not regret anything. maybe i just thought i was better than i really am... but whatever the case may be it doesnt change the fact that i miss it. i miss curtain calls and bright lights, and ugly make up. i miss joking around with mallory, and laughing at stuff like how the gun shot at the end of bernarda played 1 and a half times...
now what do i have?
i miss the times of bernarda alba...and frank sinatra...how close we all got during productions. that sense of family and belonging. how you walk into the theater and you know evferyone and how they all care about you and you care about them, the love was always present.
how we bonded over tyrant directors, and though we all complained i do not regret anything. maybe i just thought i was better than i really am... but whatever the case may be it doesnt change the fact that i miss it. i miss curtain calls and bright lights, and ugly make up. i miss joking around with mallory, and laughing at stuff like how the gun shot at the end of bernarda played 1 and a half times...
now what do i have?