Last night I cried...
Yeah...last night was a horrible night for me...all my parents did was yell and yell and yell....and my sibs decided to get into it too so it was pretty much a yellign contest.....and I lost. So I was sent to my room at 10:30 for the rest of the night and was to go to bed at 11 but I didnt tell like 1:30. I was crying my head off the whole time. Not just cuz of my parents but about everything in general. The whole summer with them...the whole year with them...it will never be the same. They will always be these unkind and hateful people in my eyes. All we do is fight. My mom said I'm gonna end up like my older brother. Well fine. He moved out right after highschool and is now in a band thats about to reach the top I think he made out great. Yeah I'll be a lil different but atleast I wont have to come home all the time unless I needed something. They just make me sick. They started sending me to a counsler...what happened to that? After 3 or 4 visits it was over. Well I guess she was scared about what she had to do to get me back...she would have to let me see whoever I wanted and be friends with whoever I wanted cuz that wasnt the problem....so she avoided it. Well fine. I guess I'll have to take things into my own hands. I'm gonna make thier lives a liveing hell until they see that they are screwing me up....well this got a lil off track...ok alot. But I guess I should say that I realized a lot of things last night. And I'm gonna change. Today is gonna suck though. I cant see my friend from 2nd grade at the movies because I slammed a door....OMG it really pisses me off...well I cant do anything...Im just rambling....Im getting bored....I'm gonna go...
-Courtney
-Courtney