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so.
whats new with me?
I've developed a lot of bad habits. I hope to return to normal while fall/winter sets in. i wont name those habits, because frankly, its not who i am. and no, one of them is not using proper grammar, punctuation, or caps, i just dont feel like pressing the shift key.
im at my job until at least the end of the year while i go to atlantic city to become certified in circuit training and weight management. might get zumba certified too. i like fitness, thats about all i know. its hard for me to develop interests. my ideas and favorites come and go so quickly, that i dont have anything lasting. im extremely simplistic, which makes me complicated i guess. i like fast thrills.
i've become very angry, i think. im constantly letting things people do that i don't agree with, get to me. i know no one is perfect, i'm not either. yadda yadda. but omg, i sometimes feel like i can run someone's life better than they have. know what i mean? i complain about things, but at least i can blame myself for things that are my own fault. like letting people get to me. that's my fault. but it seems as though NO ONE takes a look at themselves and says, "gee, maybe this has happened this way because i'm a dumbass?"
i wish i could find a way to be less angry. thats really my biggest problem right now. ive started reading harry potter, because i felt like no one can be angry while reading the harry potter series. i was slightly wrong. i found something to be mad about. the fact that damn kids blame everyone for everything even though those people blamed arent even involved. hah. i'm serous. but... i'm continuing to read it anyway. it's a distraction and keeps me from just wasting time on the computer (getting angry at people on facebook for stupid comments) or sleeping.
anyway. i have my own house now. did i mention that before? well, it's my second house. but this time i'm by myself, except for a dog, rabbit and hamster. its nice. even though i'm a decent roommate and dacey was a good one, it's good being by yourself. dont have to worry about rubbing anyone the wrong way.
hopefully my next entry will be more positive. maybe i'll find the cure to my anger. let's hope.
whats new with me?
I've developed a lot of bad habits. I hope to return to normal while fall/winter sets in. i wont name those habits, because frankly, its not who i am. and no, one of them is not using proper grammar, punctuation, or caps, i just dont feel like pressing the shift key.
im at my job until at least the end of the year while i go to atlantic city to become certified in circuit training and weight management. might get zumba certified too. i like fitness, thats about all i know. its hard for me to develop interests. my ideas and favorites come and go so quickly, that i dont have anything lasting. im extremely simplistic, which makes me complicated i guess. i like fast thrills.
i've become very angry, i think. im constantly letting things people do that i don't agree with, get to me. i know no one is perfect, i'm not either. yadda yadda. but omg, i sometimes feel like i can run someone's life better than they have. know what i mean? i complain about things, but at least i can blame myself for things that are my own fault. like letting people get to me. that's my fault. but it seems as though NO ONE takes a look at themselves and says, "gee, maybe this has happened this way because i'm a dumbass?"
i wish i could find a way to be less angry. thats really my biggest problem right now. ive started reading harry potter, because i felt like no one can be angry while reading the harry potter series. i was slightly wrong. i found something to be mad about. the fact that damn kids blame everyone for everything even though those people blamed arent even involved. hah. i'm serous. but... i'm continuing to read it anyway. it's a distraction and keeps me from just wasting time on the computer (getting angry at people on facebook for stupid comments) or sleeping.
anyway. i have my own house now. did i mention that before? well, it's my second house. but this time i'm by myself, except for a dog, rabbit and hamster. its nice. even though i'm a decent roommate and dacey was a good one, it's good being by yourself. dont have to worry about rubbing anyone the wrong way.
hopefully my next entry will be more positive. maybe i'll find the cure to my anger. let's hope.