As my soul forever gets lost in sorrow....
Hello everybody...
Lets see..i have had a very ineteresting past couple of weeks i guess you could say..and yes all of them dealing with a certain person named Dane Mikaele Morales...alot of my friends don't like him.they say he's an asshole and some other junk like that..but there is still something about him that i like..i don't know exactly what it is either..but anyway..there have been some good things with him..and then..bad things happening with him..
GOOD: Ok..last week..we only had like..3 days of school..part because parent teacher conferences [yes they still have that here]..and another because of some german parade called fashing...or something...but anyway..wednesday was...ok..kinda sucks alittle I mean..i saw Dane..we only talked online but that was pretty ok for me...ya know..i got to talk to him..i was happy...thursday me and him have language arts together..we don't really talk in that class either...partly becuase i just don't ingage in conversing with him...but..we had our minor moments..and our little inside jokes about things..which was good.Now friday..friday was the best and kinda the worst day of that week....I was alittle "under the weather" but i still went to school because my mommy wasn't home and she was coming back and i didnt want her to get mad at me if she found me home..so i went..i get scared shitless walking from my locker by Dane and his little "PSST" noise he makes..he tells me he is coming to my seminar to do homework..being that i like Dane..i was alittle excited i admit..well..by second period i feel like crap and see if i could go down to the nurses office to get some meds...i get down there..THE NURSE SENDS ME HOME...simply crazyness..so i go home and i call my mom and tell her i got sent home...well..i go to sleep for about an hour..and then i wake up and pretty much say fuck this i am goin back to school..plus i needed my homework..so i get dressed.by now my mommy was home and she was telling me no.i can't go and blah blah blah..but i go anyway..still alittle ill but i go..and i was only going ot stay for lunch but then i thought.what the hey.i will stay the rest of school [aka..seminar]..so seminar comes and me and Dane "do our homework"..of course we never get anything done we are too busy talking and flirting..its just how we are....were ..when it comes to stuff like this..but anyway..bell rang.school ended i went with erika because she had a date..we hangout at the BX for awhile and dane was there but he was hanging out with his little friends..well..me and Dane go to the shopette and then he walks me half way to my house [don't worry nothing happend..we only hugged]..and then i come home.erika calls me wondering what the hell i was doing with him and blah blah blah..my mom gets home from work in histerics..so i go BACK ot the BX to buy her a rose and a card to make her feel better..on my way back i had a minor conversation with Dane..and then he goes off with his little friends and..no big deal..but i got to spend alittle bit of time with him in a long time and i really missed him so i was very happy..
now..for the bad
BAD:..well..saturday kinda sucked..i saw him and he acted really weird..i didnt talk to him bcuz i was hanging out wit h erika ..but he was acting..not really nice....i didnt really get bothered by it...not my problem..then good ol Monday...Valentines day..my dumb ass asks him to be my Valentine..he says no cuz he doesnt want one..it really didnt bother me....until monday at lunch..he was flirting with this other girl[i forgot her name]..and we don't talk at lunch..me and Dane..but it still really hurt..ESPECIALLY on Valentines day...so..I was crying the rest of the day..i mean..it hurt my feelings..i was jealous..i admit it..but then..today...Ok..last weekend Ashley [Danes ex-girlfriend...but prolly not for long :'( ] came back..and it didn't bother me..I knew about it..but i was alittle afraid he was gonna stop talking to me and whatnot bcuz she gets back...well....today they were talking at lunch..but..it looked alittle more than just friendly talking..i think they are getting back together..and it hurts..really badly..like..its not the whole concept that she is back..but the whole fact that he is back with her after all of what was going on last week [i didnt really explain last week in vivid detail.too lazy]...but it hurts..he KNOWS i still like him..but yeah..he thinks i am mad because she is back..i am not mad because she is back.i could care less if she is back..i am just sad because..he went to her..again..i really don't understand them....deep down [my own opinion people.] i think she is just getting with him because of me..she KNOWS i like him..all throughout lunch she was stareing me down like a fuckin hawk..to see my reaction of them talking and moving close together....bcuz once they get back together [IF they get back together] she would back to her ways...it really isnt a relationship..it is just a he's a puppy and she's the owner sort of thing..like she kinda drags him around and when she doesnt wat to see him..she just..walks away..half of the time he was pissed off at her or like..sad lookin because she doesnt really pay him any mind unless SHE wants something [again..MY OPINION..all of this..my opinion..don't wannt be gettin in trouble]....but...yeah...i dunno..i REALLY hope they don't get back together bcuz then..i will be hurt..yet again...but that is how my week has been going so far..tomorrow i have language arts with him..we shall see how that pans out..he probably is gonna ignore me and i will probably end up crying AGAIN in Language Arts....really sucks...really hurts..but whatever..i have ot go lock my door so erika can't get in my house at % to drag me to the Gym...
Bye
Kaila
"and i know i never.was beautiful enough for you..."
Lets see..i have had a very ineteresting past couple of weeks i guess you could say..and yes all of them dealing with a certain person named Dane Mikaele Morales...alot of my friends don't like him.they say he's an asshole and some other junk like that..but there is still something about him that i like..i don't know exactly what it is either..but anyway..there have been some good things with him..and then..bad things happening with him..
GOOD: Ok..last week..we only had like..3 days of school..part because parent teacher conferences [yes they still have that here]..and another because of some german parade called fashing...or something...but anyway..wednesday was...ok..kinda sucks alittle I mean..i saw Dane..we only talked online but that was pretty ok for me...ya know..i got to talk to him..i was happy...thursday me and him have language arts together..we don't really talk in that class either...partly becuase i just don't ingage in conversing with him...but..we had our minor moments..and our little inside jokes about things..which was good.Now friday..friday was the best and kinda the worst day of that week....I was alittle "under the weather" but i still went to school because my mommy wasn't home and she was coming back and i didnt want her to get mad at me if she found me home..so i went..i get scared shitless walking from my locker by Dane and his little "PSST" noise he makes..he tells me he is coming to my seminar to do homework..being that i like Dane..i was alittle excited i admit..well..by second period i feel like crap and see if i could go down to the nurses office to get some meds...i get down there..THE NURSE SENDS ME HOME...simply crazyness..so i go home and i call my mom and tell her i got sent home...well..i go to sleep for about an hour..and then i wake up and pretty much say fuck this i am goin back to school..plus i needed my homework..so i get dressed.by now my mommy was home and she was telling me no.i can't go and blah blah blah..but i go anyway..still alittle ill but i go..and i was only going ot stay for lunch but then i thought.what the hey.i will stay the rest of school [aka..seminar]..so seminar comes and me and Dane "do our homework"..of course we never get anything done we are too busy talking and flirting..its just how we are....were ..when it comes to stuff like this..but anyway..bell rang.school ended i went with erika because she had a date..we hangout at the BX for awhile and dane was there but he was hanging out with his little friends..well..me and Dane go to the shopette and then he walks me half way to my house [don't worry nothing happend..we only hugged]..and then i come home.erika calls me wondering what the hell i was doing with him and blah blah blah..my mom gets home from work in histerics..so i go BACK ot the BX to buy her a rose and a card to make her feel better..on my way back i had a minor conversation with Dane..and then he goes off with his little friends and..no big deal..but i got to spend alittle bit of time with him in a long time and i really missed him so i was very happy..
now..for the bad
BAD:..well..saturday kinda sucked..i saw him and he acted really weird..i didnt talk to him bcuz i was hanging out wit h erika ..but he was acting..not really nice....i didnt really get bothered by it...not my problem..then good ol Monday...Valentines day..my dumb ass asks him to be my Valentine..he says no cuz he doesnt want one..it really didnt bother me....until monday at lunch..he was flirting with this other girl[i forgot her name]..and we don't talk at lunch..me and Dane..but it still really hurt..ESPECIALLY on Valentines day...so..I was crying the rest of the day..i mean..it hurt my feelings..i was jealous..i admit it..but then..today...Ok..last weekend Ashley [Danes ex-girlfriend...but prolly not for long :'( ] came back..and it didn't bother me..I knew about it..but i was alittle afraid he was gonna stop talking to me and whatnot bcuz she gets back...well....today they were talking at lunch..but..it looked alittle more than just friendly talking..i think they are getting back together..and it hurts..really badly..like..its not the whole concept that she is back..but the whole fact that he is back with her after all of what was going on last week [i didnt really explain last week in vivid detail.too lazy]...but it hurts..he KNOWS i still like him..but yeah..he thinks i am mad because she is back..i am not mad because she is back.i could care less if she is back..i am just sad because..he went to her..again..i really don't understand them....deep down [my own opinion people.] i think she is just getting with him because of me..she KNOWS i like him..all throughout lunch she was stareing me down like a fuckin hawk..to see my reaction of them talking and moving close together....bcuz once they get back together [IF they get back together] she would back to her ways...it really isnt a relationship..it is just a he's a puppy and she's the owner sort of thing..like she kinda drags him around and when she doesnt wat to see him..she just..walks away..half of the time he was pissed off at her or like..sad lookin because she doesnt really pay him any mind unless SHE wants something [again..MY OPINION..all of this..my opinion..don't wannt be gettin in trouble]....but...yeah...i dunno..i REALLY hope they don't get back together bcuz then..i will be hurt..yet again...but that is how my week has been going so far..tomorrow i have language arts with him..we shall see how that pans out..he probably is gonna ignore me and i will probably end up crying AGAIN in Language Arts....really sucks...really hurts..but whatever..i have ot go lock my door so erika can't get in my house at % to drag me to the Gym...
Bye
Kaila
"and i know i never.was beautiful enough for you..."