Apr 23, 2006 08:52
So...its been awhile ne? Well, Ive actually been online from time to time, but limiting myself to commenting on others journals like the shameless voyeur i am ;). So what brings me to update? Well im in need of a good purging of the "stuff" that floats about in my mind.
I was listening to the song Sitting Waiting Wishing at the Jack Johnson last night (he was AWESOME by the way) and I got to thinking. While the song is about a somewhat different topic, the title made me wonder what I am looking to get out of life. So I developed a new mantra for myself, "The Little Prince Would Go" (for those who are familiar with the little prince and the quiksilver logo "eddie would go"). I feel that many individuals can relate to the little prince, in that we are searching for that "something" to complete us. I like to call the something a "zest for life" or an " 生きる力." Like the little prince, I intend to travel far and wide. Hopefully, becoming an International or Human Rights Lawyer will allow me to do so, either that or I need to have magical flying powers like the little prince.
I wonder sometimes, what exactly im looking for. I have concluded that romantic love is no where enough to fulfill me. I want to be comfortably rich, see the wonders of the world, I want a baby to care for,...I want. Lots of things. Things that I may not even know that I want. A few lines from the Utada Hikaru song, 誰かの願いが叶うころ(when someone's wish comes true) struck me as well. “自分の幸せ願うことわがままではないでしょ”and “皆の願いは同時に叶わない”which rouglhy translates to "Wishing for my own happiness isnt selfish at all, is it?" and "Not everyone's wishes can be simultaneously fulfilled." I think that these are truthful observations people should have when living their life and searching for that something.
Maybe all this stuff is too much for one lifetime. This is why the idea of incarnation intrigues me. Perhaps we come back to experience what we did not get a chance to experience in our past lifetime. I think that would be a good way to get around in life and ascertain what is truly meaningful.
Well, every minute I spend here typing, Im still sitting, waiting, and wishing, so I think it best that I go experience the world as much as I can today. Happy day to everyone.