Anger!
Besides the deep sadness I feel, I have anger.
Anger about so much right now
Anger that most of the world can have a child with barely a second thought to it.
Anger that I couldn't get pregnant when we tried.
Anger that so many people are not willing to even look at us in the adoption world because we are two women.
Anger that most countries in the world would prefer for their children to rot in orphanages than allow two women to adopt them.
Anger that the system in the states is so corrupt and that money has become the main factor in adoption for many.
Anger that our lawyer seems only concerned about getting a match so he can get a the money and not being willing to search into these women to make sure they are legit.
Anger that Lakeisha ripped us off last year and left us paranoid, distrusting, and fragile.
Anger that the agency that places most same sex vancouver couples in Chicago wouldn't take us on last year even thought they have placed many babies with same sex Vancouver couples.
Anger that so many people around me are pregnant and I feel jealousy because I don't want to feel that.
Anger that my co-worker who is pregnant and due in August just doesn't get that talking about her pregnancy non-stop in front of me makes me insane!
That's a lot of anger! On top of it all I am suppose to sit here and somehow write my year end reports! They need to be done by Friday. I truly don't know how I am going to do it.
Anger about so much right now
Anger that most of the world can have a child with barely a second thought to it.
Anger that I couldn't get pregnant when we tried.
Anger that so many people are not willing to even look at us in the adoption world because we are two women.
Anger that most countries in the world would prefer for their children to rot in orphanages than allow two women to adopt them.
Anger that the system in the states is so corrupt and that money has become the main factor in adoption for many.
Anger that our lawyer seems only concerned about getting a match so he can get a the money and not being willing to search into these women to make sure they are legit.
Anger that Lakeisha ripped us off last year and left us paranoid, distrusting, and fragile.
Anger that the agency that places most same sex vancouver couples in Chicago wouldn't take us on last year even thought they have placed many babies with same sex Vancouver couples.
Anger that so many people around me are pregnant and I feel jealousy because I don't want to feel that.
Anger that my co-worker who is pregnant and due in August just doesn't get that talking about her pregnancy non-stop in front of me makes me insane!
That's a lot of anger! On top of it all I am suppose to sit here and somehow write my year end reports! They need to be done by Friday. I truly don't know how I am going to do it.