just as it's my turn to shine, i look like a dimwit
So I'm a little depressed. And to be honest, I don't have much to be worried about...it's just little things are building up and starting to stress me out. This week, even though we're only three days into it, has not been Denny-friendly. I had my Spanish midterm yesterday, and I know, even without getting it back, that I made some terribly reckless mistakes. For example, for the present subjunctive, I put down "puedamos" twice instead of "podamos." I knew it was wrong, too, after I turned it in. And, I really messed up on the accent part of the midterm. We learned about accent rules and had sentences that we had to punctuate properly. I said that "aun" didn't have an accent, even though it does need a diacritico one, but then I was stupid enough to put one on "aunque" which is fine and does follow all the rules. I feel stupid. And I was doing so well in Spanish--there's the end of that. The worst part is that they are all mistakes I knew if I had gone over a little more carefully I would have been able to prevent.
To make matter worse, I went to Professor Fogh's office hours for English today. And she basically was kind enough to tell me that the two last two papers I handed in weren't up to par. I completely misinterpreted one of the readings we had to write about, so that royally screwed me over. It was also the paper where I had to do "peer edits," meaning print off 19 copies for my peers to edit. So, the one and only time I was supposed to shine, appear intelligent and like I know what I'm talking about, in front of all my classmates and my professor, I happen misinterpret the reading. Groan. On the other paper, my writing voice wasn't confident enough, apparently, and she wants me to do a re-write. I haven't had to do re-writes in the past, but I guess it's good because I'm getting a second chance. Still, I thought I was a better writer than Professor Fogh is making me out to be, so I'm a little worried. I told her that I get the sense that whenever I turn in a paper, no matter how much time I put into it, it always seems as if I could write better, in response to when she told me that although she admired the ambition in my papers, she thought I could still write more to my potential. Tomorrow, when people critique my paper outloud, I guess I'm supposed to look mildly interested, despite the fact that I knew I completely misinterpreted the reading. I'm starting to get worried in that class...
Besides all this school stuff, and I do have tons of homework tonight, I have extracurriculars piling up like crazy! I'm going to monitor the polls for election protection rights (particularly keeping a close eye on the Asian and Arab-American communities) on election day (Nov. 2), so I had to go to a training on that last night. I want to join more organizations and support more causes on campus, but I feel like I wouldn't have enough time to do a good enough job if I joined them. I don't know. I'm not quite sure how much I want to test my schedule and time management skills. I talked to Madhu, the Minority Peer Advisor in MoJo last night for a long time, and she said she could easily hook me up with the other Asian-American student organizations on campus if I wanted to, and seemed a little curious when I expressed hesitancy. It's not that I don't want to, but I don't know if my scheudle can take it. I do, however, want to make it a goal that I am a MPA junior-senior year. I definitely will apply next year. It'd be such a cool job! With that, I should go. I hope everyone's having a better week than I am.
zaijian
To make matter worse, I went to Professor Fogh's office hours for English today. And she basically was kind enough to tell me that the two last two papers I handed in weren't up to par. I completely misinterpreted one of the readings we had to write about, so that royally screwed me over. It was also the paper where I had to do "peer edits," meaning print off 19 copies for my peers to edit. So, the one and only time I was supposed to shine, appear intelligent and like I know what I'm talking about, in front of all my classmates and my professor, I happen misinterpret the reading. Groan. On the other paper, my writing voice wasn't confident enough, apparently, and she wants me to do a re-write. I haven't had to do re-writes in the past, but I guess it's good because I'm getting a second chance. Still, I thought I was a better writer than Professor Fogh is making me out to be, so I'm a little worried. I told her that I get the sense that whenever I turn in a paper, no matter how much time I put into it, it always seems as if I could write better, in response to when she told me that although she admired the ambition in my papers, she thought I could still write more to my potential. Tomorrow, when people critique my paper outloud, I guess I'm supposed to look mildly interested, despite the fact that I knew I completely misinterpreted the reading. I'm starting to get worried in that class...
Besides all this school stuff, and I do have tons of homework tonight, I have extracurriculars piling up like crazy! I'm going to monitor the polls for election protection rights (particularly keeping a close eye on the Asian and Arab-American communities) on election day (Nov. 2), so I had to go to a training on that last night. I want to join more organizations and support more causes on campus, but I feel like I wouldn't have enough time to do a good enough job if I joined them. I don't know. I'm not quite sure how much I want to test my schedule and time management skills. I talked to Madhu, the Minority Peer Advisor in MoJo last night for a long time, and she said she could easily hook me up with the other Asian-American student organizations on campus if I wanted to, and seemed a little curious when I expressed hesitancy. It's not that I don't want to, but I don't know if my scheudle can take it. I do, however, want to make it a goal that I am a MPA junior-senior year. I definitely will apply next year. It'd be such a cool job! With that, I should go. I hope everyone's having a better week than I am.
zaijian