Forever, and ever..
School is coming to an end soon.. Part of me wants it to be over with. Part of me wants it to last forever.
Part of me wants it to be over with. I've gotten to the point where I can't take some people for much longer. Annoyances? I really can't stand certain people anymore. They drive me absolutely crazy, while others infatuate me wildly. I really don't wanna be in school anymore.
Part of me wants it to last forever. This year, I've had some of the bestest friends a person could ever have. The list goes on and on. I don't know what I'd do without my friends. They were with me when I went through a lot of 'drama' that happened this year. It was really nice to always have someone there for me. From Zach to CiCi, from Jessie to Delal, from Crystal to Kate, from Holly to Tricia, from Ashley to Mitsu, from Elizabeth to Justin. My friends are some of the most important people to me. And I realized, I'm not going to see many of these people ever again. Sure we say, "Yeah we gotta hang out some time!" or "BFF!" or "I'm always going to remember you!". And I came to realization that as much as we want this, it's not true. I'm probably going to lose any connections I have with these people once school is taken out of the equation. It's really sad to say that. You're probably gonna say, "oh, then you're not friends, if you say that". The truth is, we are friends. But strictly school-based friends. It's because of the strict father I have. It may seem like I blame a lot on my dad. But there's still a lot I don't tell. It may be because I'm not ready, or I'm too insecure. Hell, maybe I just don't wanna tell you. Whatever the reason, I just wanted my friends to know I really appreciate them. It's gonna be kinda hard expressing that to them.
It's really going to suck next year, without 99% of them by my side.
EDIT: I decided to make this entry public. Since I'm too afraid or whatever to say it to my friends, if they read this.. just tell me if you do.
Part of me wants it to be over with. I've gotten to the point where I can't take some people for much longer. Annoyances? I really can't stand certain people anymore. They drive me absolutely crazy, while others infatuate me wildly. I really don't wanna be in school anymore.
Part of me wants it to last forever. This year, I've had some of the bestest friends a person could ever have. The list goes on and on. I don't know what I'd do without my friends. They were with me when I went through a lot of 'drama' that happened this year. It was really nice to always have someone there for me. From Zach to CiCi, from Jessie to Delal, from Crystal to Kate, from Holly to Tricia, from Ashley to Mitsu, from Elizabeth to Justin. My friends are some of the most important people to me. And I realized, I'm not going to see many of these people ever again. Sure we say, "Yeah we gotta hang out some time!" or "BFF!" or "I'm always going to remember you!". And I came to realization that as much as we want this, it's not true. I'm probably going to lose any connections I have with these people once school is taken out of the equation. It's really sad to say that. You're probably gonna say, "oh, then you're not friends, if you say that". The truth is, we are friends. But strictly school-based friends. It's because of the strict father I have. It may seem like I blame a lot on my dad. But there's still a lot I don't tell. It may be because I'm not ready, or I'm too insecure. Hell, maybe I just don't wanna tell you. Whatever the reason, I just wanted my friends to know I really appreciate them. It's gonna be kinda hard expressing that to them.
It's really going to suck next year, without 99% of them by my side.
EDIT: I decided to make this entry public. Since I'm too afraid or whatever to say it to my friends, if they read this.. just tell me if you do.