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sooo i'm sitting alone in the computer lab working on the wicket. yes, alone. cause nobody bothered to come in besides juliet, lauren, and meg and they all had to leave for a while for various reasons. so this is a party... but i'm proud to say that after 4 years i finnally have figured PageMaker out. the page ive been working on like.. well all day actually looks good! yay i'm competent
and as for this weekend.. i think the best word for it was surreal
friday: laser tag which ended up being like 20 people and it was actually a lot of fun.. but then after laser tag, as most of you have probably heard by now, brian, kelly, katie, matty shu and i got in an accident. probably one of the scariest moments of my life.
you see we got into brians car and i sat in the middle and i noticed there was no seatbelt. right then i felt uneasy.. the whole time we were driving i kept searching for a seatbelt and kept thinking this is soo not good, people die when they dont have seatbelts. this is an omen i know we're gonna get in an accident. and sure enough, we did. i saw the cab and when it hit i grabbed for dear life onto katie and i honestly didnt know what was gonna happen. thankfully it wasnt a bad impact at all. we were all fine. thats the most important thing that we're all ok. but it just scared me soo much. it could have been soo much worse. and the thing that freaks me out the most is that i wasnt wearing a seatbelt
so just word to the wise, make sure you have seatbelts in your car. and ALWAYS wear it. and dont speed and just be careful. as kelly said i care about all of you too much to let anything happen. just be careful
and then on saturday i went to j-mans play, which in retrospect i think is a mistake. i wanted to go because i wanted to start building our friendship. but i also wanted to hang out with my bro cause i really wanted him to come home so i brought him along. but then i wanted kelly to come to because i missed her. but then i felt bad because she was supposed to go out with brian so i invited brian too. so it was an awkward large possee that didnt fit into the landon holton crowd at all. and i felt so weird cause i know a lot of j-mans friends no who i am. and they probably refer to me as his "stalker ex gf" or something i dunno. and i only talked to j-man for like 5 secs and it was extremely awkward. this isnt gonna work. i think the only times j-man and i should hang out are by ourselves, i mean that might be awk too, but extrememly less awk than being in each others environments.. if that makes any sense at all.
this also made me realize that i'm def ready to let go. its fine if i dont see him that often. i'll still talk to him. but the way things are now is just too awkward and its not working.
well i've rambled on for long enough i should get back to gold old page maker.
and then i have to read all of quentin
shit
and as for this weekend.. i think the best word for it was surreal
friday: laser tag which ended up being like 20 people and it was actually a lot of fun.. but then after laser tag, as most of you have probably heard by now, brian, kelly, katie, matty shu and i got in an accident. probably one of the scariest moments of my life.
you see we got into brians car and i sat in the middle and i noticed there was no seatbelt. right then i felt uneasy.. the whole time we were driving i kept searching for a seatbelt and kept thinking this is soo not good, people die when they dont have seatbelts. this is an omen i know we're gonna get in an accident. and sure enough, we did. i saw the cab and when it hit i grabbed for dear life onto katie and i honestly didnt know what was gonna happen. thankfully it wasnt a bad impact at all. we were all fine. thats the most important thing that we're all ok. but it just scared me soo much. it could have been soo much worse. and the thing that freaks me out the most is that i wasnt wearing a seatbelt
so just word to the wise, make sure you have seatbelts in your car. and ALWAYS wear it. and dont speed and just be careful. as kelly said i care about all of you too much to let anything happen. just be careful
and then on saturday i went to j-mans play, which in retrospect i think is a mistake. i wanted to go because i wanted to start building our friendship. but i also wanted to hang out with my bro cause i really wanted him to come home so i brought him along. but then i wanted kelly to come to because i missed her. but then i felt bad because she was supposed to go out with brian so i invited brian too. so it was an awkward large possee that didnt fit into the landon holton crowd at all. and i felt so weird cause i know a lot of j-mans friends no who i am. and they probably refer to me as his "stalker ex gf" or something i dunno. and i only talked to j-man for like 5 secs and it was extremely awkward. this isnt gonna work. i think the only times j-man and i should hang out are by ourselves, i mean that might be awk too, but extrememly less awk than being in each others environments.. if that makes any sense at all.
this also made me realize that i'm def ready to let go. its fine if i dont see him that often. i'll still talk to him. but the way things are now is just too awkward and its not working.
well i've rambled on for long enough i should get back to gold old page maker.
and then i have to read all of quentin
shit