hey everybodyyy honesty time lol omg
I used to think I'd be something, you know. No matter what, I'd be something, some defined thing, not nothing. First I wanted to be the cool teacher who convinced you that yeah, it'd be terribly beautiful and romantic if you killed yourself at sixteen, but really, you should stick around. Then I thought I'd be a poet, so even though that's useless at least it'd look productive, perhaps even pretentious but then maybe it's best to overcorrect for something that isn't there. Then I thought maybe I'd be someone's other half, someone's love of his or her life, someone's soul, but how can I be that when I haven't got a soul or a life of my own.
Now I'm fifteen again and my only desire in the world is the one that says I wish I were dead. I don't know what I'm doing here almost four years after the fact but I'm thinking that maybe quite possibly almost definitely it was a mistake. :D
And yeah I'm not in the best mood and that's all I have to say about anything at the moment.
P.S. Free music -
Nine in the Afternoon - Panic at the Disco.
Now I'm fifteen again and my only desire in the world is the one that says I wish I were dead. I don't know what I'm doing here almost four years after the fact but I'm thinking that maybe quite possibly almost definitely it was a mistake. :D
And yeah I'm not in the best mood and that's all I have to say about anything at the moment.
P.S. Free music -
Nine in the Afternoon - Panic at the Disco.