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Yesterday I keep seeing a fly around my space. The first time I noticed it it was laying belly up on the counter. I thought it was dead...so I blew on it. It moved and flew around. Then it landed there again...same way....and yet again. Wierd. Today after coming form the beach I saw another one. And it dawned on me. Flies can be found around rotten food.....things that are dying. It's almost like a representation of the death I'm going through...................................not that flies aren't common or anything. But the one landing belly up was just wierd over and over again.......right in front of me.
I did a inpromtu ritual at the beach today. It felt so good to be near the water!!!! I was speaking to my guides about how to let go of J. So I wrote in the sand that I love j but I let go. I cicled it with sea shells and the final circle drew a line around it. Threw a large shell in the heart part. My guides were there with me as well as others. The had formed the circle before I even considered anything. It was so nice having them there with me. There were at least twenty I want to say. There is someone I think to be new but I'm not sure about him yet. I saw him on the train the other day in the side of my eye. An indian. I think he was there as well. I finished up by throwing the stick into the lake and walking away and not looking back. Which was hard has hell. It hurt so much. But I called on my guides to offer healing and to help me find ways through this. I think in some ways....this was a really good thing for me to do........I think I may find that I do this more often as I need to............ (thank you guides for being there with me today. I really apprecaite it. Really from my heart.) There here right now too. I don't know how I know...but I sense them all around me.........I'm gonna go and clear my space soon....cause I appreciate the support but on an energetic level....I want my space......
(ahhhh much better.......)