something funny that happened today
I went into Borders bookstore to order an iced tea. I went for my wallet and didn't see it. Looked everywhere!!! Nothing. Drat. So I walked away from the register. I felt the boiling of frustration beginning to stir inside of me. Just as quick as I noticed it, I decided not to give into and changed my perspective. I sat reading and thinking about what was I going to do without my wallet. No access to money what so ever. I started thinking about if I had food at work, would I have to get there early, if I needed to borrow money, and who I could do that with, and how long I could go without food. Eventually, I just sat and stopped worrying. I just gave up. I gave into the circumstance. I had no money.....but everything is still ok. I suppose, you could say, I gave up control. I sat reading more and more. I eventually was inspired to write down some quotes from the book and went for my notepad. As I was pulling my notepad out, what else did I see...but my wallet!!! *Laughs* I just sat there like..."...well....ok....lesson here, eh?" *laughs* ( Not that I was looking for a lesson. But I felt inside of me that this was a lesson and I should take note of it, you know. )
Sometimes you go "looking" for things and the harder you search...you find yourself not finding '"it". You use to know exactly where to find it. Whether it be in a person, or a book, or a building. You look in all the usual places and you still don't see it. You began to think it was lost...misplaced.....out of reach. At that moment you realize that you have a choice. You can be angry......or you can change the perspective.......and find peace in acceptance. Finding peace may be a little hard to do at first. You might really want to give in to anger. There’s a strong pull there. Now, since you now don't have what you once had.....you begin to wonder what your life will be without it. What will you have to give you? What will you loose? What will you have to work through? As these thoughts build, you try to control things as much as you can. You'll do this and this...and you won't do this anymore. Eventually, hopefully, you reach a stage where you give up. Giving up is not a bad thing. It's affirming. It means you are willing to accept things. Through acceptance comes change. It's got to be exhausting trying to be on control all the time!! As you accept situations, you take a step out of the little box you've been contained in and realize.....everything is ok. You look back at the box and see all the chaos. And then you look out on your new space and see the peace and calm. You find the knowingness that everything is working in divine order. Everyone is exactly where they need to be. You also realize that you didn't have to have xy and z. You begin to feel free. You begin to live your life. That is when you begin to be able to see clearly again. And you notice that what you've been looking for all along was right with you. You just weren't able to see it at the time...you got angry at not being able to see it and tried to control circumstances. But in letting go.....allowing thing to be......opening that window you've been looking through......you were able to see without obstruction.
So accept the things that are happening around you. It can be ground breaking to do so. It can change you entire perspective on life. Through acceptance, comes change. You have to be willing and courageous enough to see all that is happening around you. I know that all of you are.
Only then will you find what your looking for. You just might find that it's been within you all along........