Dad's energy
So the guy that's been hanging around me...............yeah.....it's my dad's energy.........
Interesting. My dad trying to get me to do this his way. Run my life the way he thinks I should. Control. Just as well.....true girl and I were talking about the way I eat. It's understandable to have to eat every three hours....but every hour? A lot of it is sugar and caffine that I crave. So Saturday night for the first time I tried not giving into it and seeing what happens. It was intense. I got that same pain all up my right side (male energy side) and it didn't go away for at least twenty minutes. I did all the stuff that I do. The grounding, owning my space and telling him to leave. Eventually, the pain subduded enough that I could go to sleep. So do I still get hit with this energy? Yup. But I know it's energy and not something more and I know who's causing it. I'm now wondering if it has something to do with sucking off of my energy. If I load up my system with sugar and I'm depleated of that within an hour......where is it going if I'm just sitting around? And then I feel this panic energy that says...give me sugar now!!! So yeah........
So the trick is to really own my space in a female manner. Flood my system with female energy.
So yeah....I'm working on it. Could I work harder? Probally.......I need to work harder on a lot of things.........
Interesting. My dad trying to get me to do this his way. Run my life the way he thinks I should. Control. Just as well.....true girl and I were talking about the way I eat. It's understandable to have to eat every three hours....but every hour? A lot of it is sugar and caffine that I crave. So Saturday night for the first time I tried not giving into it and seeing what happens. It was intense. I got that same pain all up my right side (male energy side) and it didn't go away for at least twenty minutes. I did all the stuff that I do. The grounding, owning my space and telling him to leave. Eventually, the pain subduded enough that I could go to sleep. So do I still get hit with this energy? Yup. But I know it's energy and not something more and I know who's causing it. I'm now wondering if it has something to do with sucking off of my energy. If I load up my system with sugar and I'm depleated of that within an hour......where is it going if I'm just sitting around? And then I feel this panic energy that says...give me sugar now!!! So yeah........
So the trick is to really own my space in a female manner. Flood my system with female energy.
So yeah....I'm working on it. Could I work harder? Probally.......I need to work harder on a lot of things.........